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Friday, August 04, 2006

There has been a recent bout of tagging incidents which has caused much excitement.

Blog 1:
Really surprised me. So much angst. So much issues. And so much conflicts. And really, it is evident from his blog that he is seriously dealing with the conflict WITHIN himself. not really with me or joanne, with my GP teacher or whoever in the class.
but REALLY , WITH himself. He faults others for making judgements. Or at least he faults others based on his ASSUMPTIONS of the judgements.
Statements u make, actually have very childish tones to them under the mature language u attempt to use.
My my, its just sad that you dismissed all of the neutral comments we tried to give and even think they are attacking you and your character, and yes ur 'invincible' clique.

Blog 2:
Vish my bf.
Really, the controversy over this one just awakened me to another point of how people LOVE this whole interference into others' relationships.
Yes, i have recently been such a victim of such nosy interference. And irrelevant comments.
Statements that dont hold water, perceptions loosely based on physique and face that are merely stated to destroy or shaken an innocent relationship.
If that person truly means somethin to you, you wouldnt create such hoohaa drama.
yes , Jealousy is an inevitable emotion. But such evil & childish ways to portray that jealousy?

We are ALL old enough to differentiate between genuine concern and pure evil.

Vish, take a chill pill. Sit down and enjoy the show.BUT dont ever EVER stoop to their level and hit them with similar lowly comments.

All I can say is , blog without regretting. It is after all, YOUR own freedom of speech. But to take advantage of this freedom with no sense of responsibility, doesnt mean that we are questioning and faulting ypur liberties. it jus means YOU are just SENSELESS.

Yes,if u seen me recently, you wouldnt miss this whole Panda-Eye look i m goin for.
Yes i have horrible eye bags, and i look lethargic. SO, this is jus a forewarning.
Yes i WANT SLEEP!
grr... but yea, I cant complain. :)

ALot of mental stress. Of my priorities. And how time management is gonna come in.
Dealing with alot of issues. Like how I am goin to overcome this phase with all the various OTHER activities, i wouldnt say distractions... And where I am goin after this phase, and the immense competition that I will face and yes, facing.
Yes, i have made sure that my decisions are MINE. So that I will live to live the consequences.

I am dealing with it alot. Yes, but it IS better that i do. I need this stress and pressure from myself cos seriously, it IS my own stress and pressure that i give myself which pushes me to achieve what I have achieved and given others the opportunity to achieve.
It is this very stress created that has taught me how to deal with it later and how to identify those that I need and should bother to keep in my life.
Much of this stress can only be elevated by myself alone. Thats why very few people know the real reasons for my stress .
To the darlings who have been ABSOLUTE darlings during these phases, thank you.
Its this very few people that will have my back when i am down for sure.
Not those who only want a share of my happiness when its all over.
Take the fame . Take it all you want.
Cos seriously, I have come to a point where my personal satisfaction means the most to me.
And that is what keeps me goin time after time , problem after problem.

I went back to Cedar .
And honestly, when I was 13 , I never would have imagined I would say this very words.
Cedar Girls Secondary has truly given me the optimum situations for me to mould myself and my character. And half of what I am today,especially in the part of leadership roles , discovery of my own academic abilities, relations with different sorts of people and dealing with ALL SORTS of people (mostly, fucked up ones) is due to Cedar and what it has offered me.

I miss that school and all the memories, and when I say it, i truly feel it. Its like a loss. But it IS a phase that i will never choose to erase.
TO ALL my friends from Cedar, it was an awesome and rollercoaster ride of 4 years.
I truly cant be bothered with the fuckheads who couldnt wait to get out of the school and think I am being over-emotional. Cos really, for a person who HATED cedar for 2 blardy years, i think i have much to say.

I have bored the brunt of unpleasant teachers and unfair treatment in school.
But just for that, i would never sillyly want to take back all the moments I had and all the friends i made.

I apologise really, for the lengthy post. I have not blogged for long.. And nothing particularly controversial has happened in my life.
I am not complainin though cause theres this bunch of people I love and absolutely have a ball of time with doing nothing.

Shini : 2:03 PM