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Saturday, August 13, 2005

not a good day at all. yesterday i meant. today's barely even started.

the first paper from big o. and i screwed it up.
haiks FUCKen heavens.
wat was i thinkin.

i m xtrememly disappointed. really. i dono where i went wrong.
got a 2 . ms meena was so disappointed. ma whole class dint do well.

and thank gawd for ma parents. they dint make a huuge fuss as i tot they would .
acutally they dint say nethin. jus a lil disappointed. esp ma dad. HAIKS.

but anyway. lets talk abt another thing. ma fren and i wre talkin .
this gal whos 20 -odd and she is sufferin problems from her family
because her parents have already arranged for her a bridegroom BUT she loves someone else.

and she has a couple of siblings but no one is on her side. And mind u, this gal is only 22 plus. well she hasnt told anyone abt the person she likes. so shes jus maintainin the story that she doesnt want marriage.
AND her parents have already come up with the marriage proposal. in fact, they came up with everythin and then told her.

NO doofuses, i m not talkin abt a tamil movie. a REAL gal in SINGAPORE with this dilemma.
i was so shocked. i tot this kinda stuff existed in tamil movies.
geez. tat gal happens to be ma friend's friend.
wah sheesh

and then this story obviously made me think abt one closer to ma heart, abt ma cousin

sheesh. i m flabbergasted. ( nice to say ah)

but really. on one hand, we can say so sweet arh, the guy blah blah.
but really the issue here isnt abt love sweet love. its abt this thinkin. grrrr

i shudder. thinkin abt my marriage. well , that is if its gonna exist. not that ma parents are totally unreasonable freaks.
they are FINE folks i say.

ok. reality check.
I NEED TO BRUSH UP. its muggin mode. i remember last yr, i was tellin maself , sighs shini, such a pathetic gal, no more social life next year.. its jus gonna be mug mug mug.
N in fact, its jus gotten opposite.
look at me.
tsk tsk tsk tsk.

grr. i gotta do hardcore studyin. and still, yet, no sense of urgency.
wats wrong wif me LORD.

and september. is the month of bdays.
chalets. and celebrations.
and i have this feeling that i m gonna offend a few ppl.

m taken.

Shini : 9:30 AM