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Sunday, July 03, 2005

okay. its FUCKIN annoyin. that i have to live ma life like a detective..do u know ALL DA BLARDY TIME, i have to think abt how u guys would feel.
and tats why i dont say anythin.
thats why i hide things. not coz i intentionally DO IT.
how many fuckin times,
coz of some guy that u like or used to like is talkin to me, jus coz i m gettin close to someone and tat SOMEONE doesnt want anyone to know or because we r goin out and that person asks me not to say.
i THINK . goddamit. I THINK of how these ppl feel.

i dont do stuff intentionally. lemme tell u ... i dont really care wat u think. but in da end, i live ma life like a secret agent.... coz i have to end up protectin some of ma friend's wishes..
coz her FRIENDS would talk.and shes scared.
DO U FUCKIN GEDDIT?!

how come u chicks always have this problem wif me?
fine fine fine.. i shant ask u anythin from ur life ANYMORE. i dont have to know anythin
and if u have a problem, why cant u tell me?
ah?!
ok, it isnt so easy to talk to me maybe.
fine fine.

and u can go ard sayin that ur friends mean the world to u?!
rite i can see how ur world revolves.

and to u
u write in ur fuckin friendster profile..tat u hate hypocrites. come on u are a breathin example of it.
its okay, we all are hypocrites at ONE POint of our lives..
but u,
u jus simply surprise me at how much EASE u execute this characteristic of urs.
telliin the jrs stuff.
and u kno wat BABE, look ard. they arent enjoyin ur company.

not jus u... to another one as well.. theres a bunch of u there k

and i do this. I HATE to lie thru ma teeth. ESPECIALLY To u guys . neither do i like hidin things
but because of ur mouth, and ur friends as well,
i live like this.

OKAY?!

screw u ppl.

and to u , take a blardy life sized mirror and look at urself.
u have changed.

anyway..met yoga today..in da mrt...
UNDOH phone.hahahhahahaha

and walked me halfway back.
thankew .

to ash, natz,jbmani,rj...where da fuck have u guys been
i havent seen u guys in ages ?

and to tat one
-it sucks to know tat u arent thinkin of me -

Shini : 10:13 PM