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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

okay anyway. ehhhhhh am i mean..

oral was yesterday. and also tl meetin interview.

i cant hate her forever. i realised. i do miss a few times we bitched abt and crapped and all.
and i CANT HATE ANYONE for a long period of time.
tho i mite seem like it.ahem
and i heard wat she asked one of the juniors durin da tl meeting.
so i jus sat there, thinkin abt it.

so i was thinkin. i m not gonna dislike her la. wat da hell.

haiks i hate maself for being like this. so contradictory.
i jus wished i could hate someone sooo strongly at times
and. today tamil teacher talked abt one thing.....
it was abt the power of tellin urself repeatedly abt somethin..
and DAMN she said something.but i so freakingly forgot. it was such a major point!
OH YEA. somethin abt holdin a glass of water.

ok u see, u hold a 100gram weight . for the first 15 minutes it seems light .
then as u go on, the longer u hold it, the heavier it becomes.
BUT IT IS STILL A 100 gram weight. correct?

moral of da story kids?
u keep somethin in ur mind, an issue, a sadness....
da longer u keep it inside, the heavier the emotional burden and the more the repercussions on u.

true rite.

so talk it out.
easier said than done?
hm.... jus TALK it out.

ok this whole VJ thing, darlings. theres nothin between me n him okay?
too many ppl askin.i dono WHY Also.
but really nothin.
tsk tsk.

did i enter in abt monday?
i went to shaz house. watched stratosphere girl.
some artsy fartsy movie.
and she was german
and urm, we were eatin germany chocolates shaz tution kid gave.
i love jon yang.
and it was an interestin movie.
at least it had an happy ending.
coincidence.

hm. i need to mug . MAJOR BIG TIME.

khomi, somethin is troubling u . we will meetup soon and talk abt it.
vish, dont give up can pleasepleaseplease. trudge on baby. pleasepleaseplease.

i dono how i did for da 3 tests.
i wanna do well.
haiks.

I HAVE TO!.
oral i was nervous.closed ma eyes, and dad's face came to ma mind.
he n his goofy smile.
i love dat man.

chubachubas.

i m gettin more anxious as days goin by. its not good. i m gettin to know ppl ard me in school betta.
gettin to share more fun moments wif em.
especially tamil class. its so fun now. and it hurts that we all gonna part soon. haiks we have done so much shit in class....so much so to the nicknames, the debates, the laughters, the mockin of teachers, the exchangin of places secretly, the boycottin tamil homework together, the not doing newspaper review togedda n of course who can forget.
do u believe we were given a comprehension once, with 6 questions. and we were sooo lazy that we refused to do it but teacher still insisted so i got pissed off and we assigned two ppl to one question, 11 gals in ma class.
so we passed ard each other's paper and whoeva was in charge of da question wrote it.
and we were shoutin 'question 26 here....who else needs? ' all infront of da teacher
can i EVER forget this.
nope.
especially the mockin of the musicians. sighs. departure always hurts eh.

m too paranoid. think too much. read too much into things. rite?

'i dono wat to feel abt this whole thing. so confused. but maybe its all jus simple. jus friends'

Shini : 4:46 PM

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