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Monday, May 16, 2005

rite..

so i was talkin abt this blogskin rite..
about how much it represented me. and ma life. well i wouldnt say that i have been through MAJOR shit or major depressing issues...
but i can say i have had many many learning experiences...

i once told my mother after one incident.. that i felt that iwas very lucky. that i felt that god was kind to let me learn so much from wat i observe from the people round me...

i have had ma loved one part away from it..when i least expected it.. when i took it for granted that he would pull thru and survive ...
i have had dumb dudes ruin ma reputation and make me look like a complete shithead.
i have had people insult me abt ma outer appearance...and ma character without knowin who i truly am.
i have had my own kin compare me.
i have been the 'odd' one out.
i have had my lonely moments.
i have had people smile infront of me and talk trash about me behind me.
i have had people whose horrible first impressions of me dont change.because of their ego.
i have seen ma friends go thru shit.

i can go on.
and u can snigger and say...."ah wat big life...wat big shit has she gone thru'...
well... i m wat i am today coz of my past events.

theres many things abt me u dont know.
and probably will never know... (pardon me.. i am NOT tryin to sound enigmatic, mysterious or 'cool')

theres truly No one in this world, as i confidently say who knows me inside out. who knows what goes thru in ma mind...
no one who knows all da events that go thru in ma life. and ma responses to them all.

many do have different opinions of me.
some know me as THE B.I.T.C.H, some think me as the bimbotic flirt( eh i can do my 2.4km in like 14 secs k), some regard me as the slacker, sleepin beauty in class...some refer to me as a loud dumbass, others feel i m sarcastic, or the bubbly girl who cracks funny jokes.

WATEVER IT is, i have come to accept the various opinions i have had.
trust me, i have a wide spectrum of first impressions and opinions of me from other ppl.
i thank all of u for ur honesty.
to those who have changed for the better or the worst after knowin me.. good.

i havent ended. i jus started.

Shini : 8:15 PM