cheeky chompers

2008-06-06T15:57:00.004+08:00

Ah yes. So I have been to Bangkok and back. And an added $2000 added trip to the hospital.
Argh. Eugh. A suspected case of appendicitis and food poisioning combined.
I was admitted and yes it was my first ; stayin in a hospital. several injections, on drips, CT scan, the 'gorgeous sleek and chiq' blue gown likened to those of Vera Wang.(pahhhh)
Ok my feeble and pathetic attempt at a joke again.

Trip was good. i anticipate one with the girl friends!
yeahp, it was jus me and my cousin. two females. nothing to worry about. other than stupit annoyin dumbwits of taxi drivers who simply jus DO NOT switch on their meters and jus quote you off hand prices.
right . lookin forward to my hongkong one next and perhaps NEW YORK very much later in the year to visit the cousin. certainly with extra caution for my sensitive stomach.

Okay, on a more serious note ...
I have been contemplating to shut the blog for good. I agree . with my readers(action ah), that my posts have become rather 'cryptic' , or 'codeish'.
God knows why. And furthermore, its turning out to become a habitual platform of angst blast.

So I almost got down to deleting it about a week back, when I went to previous posts, and I realised that this blog has been around since 2004! wow.
4 years. but only 261 posts to date.
And so i read the posts, and I laughed at my innocence(i'd like to believe so), my immaturity and my silly silly daily happenings.
I havent read them all yet. It was gettin abit dreary and tiring. They all sounded the same, what I did, what friends I needed to say hi to .
I havent read the later posts in about these 2 years. And I m sure they have evolved abit more. For better for worse I dont know.

I never meant for this blog to be a world-awakening one, a society-challenging one. Neither did I want it to be bimbotically silly. But yes, I did express certain of my principles , certain values which I stand strongly for and I did reinstate my stand on several issues.

But I do know that, there are people who are reading this blog , and it somehow is a connection from you to me, even though you dont talk to me.
It has been and still is. Some of you slip in and out of my life, and this blog is perhaps the only non ego-fufilling way of maintainin contact with me or our memories.

I appreciate it. I really do. And sometimes, no, actually ALL the times, when someone says I read your blog , I read this, Or yeah I know this through your blog, trust me, I am sincerely touched from the bottom of my heart. Fear not, I don't think you are any stalker. Because I know I am no fantastic engaging writer. And you took the effort (or maybe you just kaypoh kaypoh abit ah.hah!)

So , I'd like to thank all of you , for acknowledging that I exist somehow still in your lives and an extra HUGE thank you to those who always check on me after an angsty post, have my blog as your favourite page,or even on your desktop, (but not my new hp number?)

I am not going through a personality overhaul nor I am in depression mode . I am just ,well , perhaps growing up abit more .
And realising that certain things need to be revalued... And certain aspects of my life which I wish to change or can do without.

I will leave the blog for a while . Probably I will delete it after I have read all the posts. And perhaps I wont .

But this will be my last blogpost. And if you sincerely want to keep in contact with me, please just do it. I will always say this, because I truly believe it ; that ego should never come between a friendship or a relationship.
I have tried, and sometimes, you just need two hands to clap. So to those who still insist on being backstage , I virtually shake ur hand (I just have to be LAME abit) and say goodbye.

to those of you who have been always there, I am not oblivious.

Biscuitboy (used to ah)
Ashwhiny(I wont forgot how you set up this whole blog for me)
Pravind
Yoga
Candyman
Thank you

To those of you who I dont know and you peek in at times, hello?Maybe you could say hi. In real-life. And of course, to those who I have angered through the blog, (some loser wanting to beat me up and all), oh well. I wont say sorry , because what I said, I meant. And yes, the NEW msn add is satoishini@hotmail.com .

'What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be one with each other in silent unspeakable memories' -George Eliot(1819-1880)

2008-05-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

Alright.

I m tired. after dance. dance class.
yes yes for the production comin up soon.

other than that, I am flying off to Bangkok. Sat 31 to Tues 03.

After that would be to Hongkong again!

Argh. Everytime i Go overseas, camera screws up on me.
Canada, I used a normal non-digital camera. so the photos are in print. and i m REALLY lazy to scan them. Theere are really quite alot. and yes, as u might have realised, the quality isnt that fantastic. But i have gorgeous shots of snow and beautiful frosted trees.

And the first trip to Hongkong, the pics are jus missing!
I really dono where the F they are. tried searching and i presume i must have lost them in the process of losing my computer.

Alright, besides that, the chummy buddies checkin on me every now and then. THANK GOD for you all lar!
i really DO love u guys.
Alright, besides the emo, I need the break. away......

And yes , I really need to learn to save. LIKE SERIOUSLY.
I realised, that I am extremely spoilt and I really spend money like water. And I am always lookin for nonsense to buy. that half of which I am not using, and its jus staring at me in its plastic cover, or hidden somewhere dusty and musky .
I am gettin increasingly petrified at my management of finances, what with the holidays all comin up and the compelling need to buy buy buy . everythin is on a god damn sale.

TSK. I fear. and really, online shopping CAN get pretty daymn addictive. My new laptop is growin onto me( yes yes , my sony oh-so-gorgeous vaio brown lizard) i have a penchant for reptiles. lizards, snakes, dragonnnnns. Hah.

and the damn POSB card. I should have NOT relented to my father's requests to gettin me one.. I am never gettin a VISA or a debit card. Please do slap me if I ever do.

And I am getting HELL lot of cravings these days.

Alright, toodles. I need orange juice. And i m runnin off in my PJs to get 'um

2008-05-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

Am i not allowed to feel pain?

Dont I need a hug, a shoulder to cry on?

Selfish selfish selfish.
ego .

words . really unnecessary.
hostility.

u forgot . ur pauses . ur hesitance. so much for goin thru thick and thin.

why is it an excuse for all of you. its so SELFISH.

and you. after all we shared, u killed everythin.
sad i understand, ur angst i understand, but hate?
every SINGLE damn thing crumbled.

I DONT PROMISE what i cant deliver.
you DID. you said EVERYTHIN. and of course, YOU turn the arrow to me.

yes, lets all do the EASIER thing.
blame the other one, get angry, put our pride before every fucken goddamn emotion , be selfish, be alone.

u know the one common thing between the two of you?

u both taught me to NEVER give my trust ever.
i gave all , i dared to.
i will never , and i dont think i can henceforth.
back to square one.

THE END.
for real.

2008-05-18T00:08:00.003+08:00

I shall begin with how my room is in DIRE need of cleaning. clothes are EVERYWHERE , papers are flying. its really Really bad. theres only enough walkin space from my bed to the door, from the door to the mirror/my cupboard.

I dont know how i got so lazy. actually i do. I have become a BUM!

haha not that I am complaining.

And really increasingly weak willpower. to clean, do the dishes, my laundry, blah and blah.

anyways, i did my first buy online from ebay. Victoria's Secret bag and a Victoria Secret's top!

boy i was SO excited to get it thru mail.. i was like checking it everyday.

my materialistic desires have jus become more urm, let's say, extensive.

I keep shoppin. the atm card is evil. i should have just politely declined my dad's offer to open up a bank account .

Yes yes, i have had a new haircut. Honestly, I have heard good and bad. All of my life, I have heard pretty hilarious stuff about my hair. (when i was growin up that is)

and u know what, I really laugh when people dont like my hair or give me really crude comments. because I dont care. And I have seriously come to realise and acknowledge that those who dislike this, are more of the conservative typical people who think a girl should have orderly hair. (which is rebonded straight long hair, black, else dark brown)

Please lar,I am as indian as I can be. I dont dismiss my Indian-ness. But I certainly am different.

:) From you , you and YOU.

And honeys, I dont expect those bunch of you to appreciate style anyways.

But, I have had my fair share of good compliments. Thankew very much.

I will enjoy this as much as I can.

Till my curls creep up and frizz the hair of course.

alrights, i shall post up soon enough.

2008-04-11T16:12:00.003+08:00

hey ho dumble bo..

I m currently at work (surprise)
and i m absolutely bored. and tired. my limbs need some dancing . and i basically need a hug .
and a good springy roasted chicken with fresh roman iceberg lettuce PLEASE.
and a good chilled beer.

i dono where the cravings are comin from. perhaps from the fact that i have not been havin good solid satoishini-stomach-satisfyin meals for the past 2 weeks.

Grr.

I currently am suffering from the moments AGAIN. the moments where you have so many issues in your head swimming ,dyin to get out in black and white print but dies the minute i type in my log-in name for blogger.com.
DAMN lar.

I m currently into hindi movies. I have somewhat engraved in my brains that true love, fantasy, romance in its good essence all remains purely in movies.
So I am enjoyin the movie galore.
but of course i immediately stop the movie the moment i sniff a bad sad despondent ending.
like for Fana.

funny isnt it? ask my friends. they would probably tell you i m almost a sadistic realist. i m practical. logical and all that.
but I HATE sad movies. or stupid damn cliff hangers.
i do NOT watch them again or at least i watch them with the happy ending i configured on my own in my head.

boys.men. guys. stoopeed idiots.
enough is enough lar.
grrr .
clearly emotional hence the incoherent language . pardon it please

on a lighter note, i m BUSY.
with productions,(inform you guys more at a closer date
work
tuition
friends
family

and i have lost some friends in this process i think. from then end of my a levels to the holidays.
hence the awkward hellos, the shuffling of feet, scurrying away to be unnoticed, random small talk.

argh .

yes, i love dressing up for work. hence i m still continuing to work. besides, i take it that i get paid to get dressed up . (and do some shitty work of course)
i m becoming a dumb blonde( can make it lar with the streaks)
speakin of which , i need a new hairDO.

2008-03-29T15:56:00.002+08:00

The face of pain . trust candyman to catch the point so quick eh.

hahaha

i would post the pic . but then again i would not.
see it for real

i m givin tuition! and honestly, i like it. no no its not the imposition of ideas(draw a concept map, highlight), the bullying (2 what donkeys ah? where your units)...
but just the small minute joy of them understanding what you are tryin to put across..

I now clearly understand to the full extent how silly my excuses might have sounded to my tuition teachers , how transparent I was when i dint know somethin..

i lost the tuition record book.
left my textbook in school. couldnt do homework.
i came back damn LATE everyday. (where at this juncture, mom screams from back 'NO YOU CAME IN EARLY. SLEEPIN ALL YESTERDAY!')
i only had maths tuition thru out .
and i did sleep.

i m havin fun . definitely. and i m takin it as a challenge for my 2 boys to do well.

sometimes i feel like i m in a whirl of emotions.
and it takes a damn long while to get out of it. daymn!

2008-02-26T12:30:00.002+08:00

My my ! I realised how I have not posted a single post for year 2008!

tsk.

I bet no one reads this any more. Oh wells.

I just find it slightly cumbersome to borrow the laptop from the brother and by the time everythin loads. and seriously, I am not one who's enslaved by technology completely and think without that, I am nothing. Yes Yes, I have grown up. Haha.

Besides, its freaking annoying when the computer hangs or something goes wrong.

Golden words canNOT be repeated. Or at least cannot be typed again.

Much has happened. New year in a plane. I dint even get to experience new year.

I was in Minneaspolis on the eve . And by the time i reached tokyo , it was the first already.

And I was way too anxious to get home after 3 freakin flights. Thank you!

I dint have a digital cam. so the pics are all in paper.

I m way too lazy to scan the pictures and upload them.

Canada was certainly a relaxing trip. I love , absolutely LOVE Boxin day!

We cant have one in Singapore though. Nah-ah!

we would be dead chickens .

So yes, i Did shop abit. And certainly do regret for not shopping more.

hur hur.

Worked in SINDA. For 2 weeks . Quit.

Lousy environment. Seriously. Only reason i worked was for my boss. My neighbour who was a gentleman of course.

only fun was dressing up of course. I dont give a shit and I am certainly not gonna wear undo clothes like all of you . Doh!

Its in times like this that I discover tops still with their tags on. And I of course ingeniously mix-and-match..

MY birthday, simple affair. But that as the reason, I met and renewed friendships. Which I am certainly very happy for!

Haha.

I am beginning to dread shopping . everythin is the SAME. Its starting to get annoyin at how everyone dresses similarly.

N the shops sell the same blardy thing.

Grr.

Basic seperates seem to be the best option these days.

Tsk.

Yes and the much asked about results is takin so damn long to come.

Mind you, I am not anticipating them in joy but I m certainly dreadin the wait.

Good or bad, I wanna take it and swallow it.

Besides the numerous bad dreams I am havin are SiCKeningly Unpleasant thank you very much!

Grr.

Just give us the date .

On a slightly wild note, I have gotten inked!
haha.
I love it ！ Ta ha ha.

2007-12-22T04:30:00.000+08:00

okay i jus read devi's blog. thankew darling. i miss you too!
WE will meet up when i return eh!
and i think i owe u $$ . aahahahha
i will return. dont action u workin lady all.

yes yes still in brampton, canada. still cold. but it stopped snowing. thank god. the roads are cleared. its much easier to move around without the snow. i think i m goin to the niagra falls tomorrow. its all gonna be icyyyY!
tsk .
i have watchedSOOO Many dvds here .

dammit. i m gettin a lil homesick already. everyone knows how i m a sucker for chinese food. here mee pok? DONT EVEN THINK ABT IT.
but i did get alot of indian food. yes all i mdoin here is eatin eatin and eating.
standard day. breakfast with a tim hortons tea and bagel with sausage and egg.
SO FATTY. i had Anjappar Chettinad BUffet Lunch the other day. yes they have alot of indian food buffets here.

wonder why its not so prevalent in sg?
hur hur.

DAmmmnnn. i cant wait for the year to end. 2008!!!! somehow it seems to promise me alot of things.
and 2007 was a major MAJOR year filled with stupit ups and downs. no no all i wana have is FUN.
i did too much , said too much and worked too much in 2007.
2008 come what may, i m gonna have fun!
lols.

The policemen in canada are cute. Hah.

2007 was one helluva year.

but anyway. more importantly i was thinkin of shuttin down the blog. really. i blog so irregularly. i bet there arent any more readers. even if there are all u so secretive abt it.
and yes i dont divulge MUCH abt my personal life here anyways. sorry theres not too much goin on in my life.
i m a bawring person. compared to many other 'famous' bloggers.
HAH.
really, i dont like things that are larger than life. if ur virtual world is more happening than reality, urm, okay. good for you. i think almost at one point, my life was tippin to that . thank god it dint really happen such.

me no like.

well anyways.
i miss literature.
but thats jus abt it.

I m off to read. and drink more tea.
TA-da!

see what i mean. irregular nonsensical little posts. toodles.

2007-12-14T09:00:00.000+08:00

ho ho ho! all the way from toronto.. Brampton, Ontario
CANADA

okayyyy its freezing cold here. honestly. it Snowed just now . very pretty. like rain but jus white balls.
everythin is covered in snow. roads, houses. a very white christmas.

The flight was HORRIBLE. I had two transits which means i had fuggin 3 planes to take.
Tokyo transit wasnt too bad. But detroit was ergh terrible. and i walked around the duty-free shops and nothin much.
so i resorted to orange peony somethin tea from good ole Macdonalds.
You can really NEVER go wrong with macs.

The night before my flight was super, with my 3 females stayin over. and we dint sleep so i slept in all 3 flights. i was dead tired.
but still i dread comin back to singapore because of the FLIGHTS. argh!
the tokyo to detroit one is 12 hours man.

i really salute the auntie who comes oh-so-often to singa.

anyways. yes. despite the butt freezin weather, everythins been okay. so many malls. so many indian people here though. sikhs bhais. so you have butchers punjabi suit stores(SCARCE but still existent), threadin shops and north indian buffet meals.

Tim hortons is like the lifeblood of Canada.
Its a coffee place. N its everywhere.
like kopitiams in singapore.
they sell coffees, theres always a queue and i havent really tasted the coffees.
i only drink the black tea.

Yes, we are goin to the niagra falls next weekend. its suicide really. because its gonna be SO COLD. but i hear there are outlet shops there. yay!
shoppin is expensive. so is food. nothin BEATS singapore buddies.

one thing dirt cheap here is DVDs. its like 1.99 per cd.
and good copies mind you. tamil movies, bollywood hits. latest english movies.
EVERYTHIN ada.

Phew.
thats alot .and yes snow is beautiful BUT ass freezing!

On another note, its over. Yes it is.
And i mean it. Seriously, sometimes i think people underestimate me. My ability to stand strong about a decision , to pick up myself . the bits and pieces.
Honestly i hate this part, to pick up the pieces, to trudge through.
but i will.

Happiness is subjective .
tsk.

On another note, i dono if this dude really reads my blog anymore or not. One day he does and one day he doesnt.
Seriously, get the hint . I wish you had more guts for your age. Stop treatin me like your plumber. Callin or gettin in touch at random times. What, you talk to me when you have a tiff with your gf?
this is harsh but really i feel fed up.

On another random random note (soul searchin on holiday lar. FYI, i came ALONE on this trip)
I have come to realise that i have increasingly no (pun intended) patience for guys who are wishy-washy.
Its either you want or not. Be it anythin. But i have always been attracted to or have more confidence in guys who know what they want. Emotionally they know where they stand. Yea i m sure all of us at one point, do stumble, do have problems deciding what we want here and there lar. but.generally, i cant deal with guys who want the leechin attention, feed you ego. who are anythin anythin.
GO To hell.
BTW,this is really to no one in particular.
observations lar. how at crucial points i somehow find myself takin the steering wheel.
hah.

i have rambled long and well enough.
i shall retreat to the family room where an ARRAY of dvds await me.

meanwhile, the rest of you, enjoy your holidays!

2007-12-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

boys.headache.
men. even worse.

2007-11-26T11:16:00.001+08:00

ah i m super lazy to put the pictures after the post. so yes .

HULLO!

the exams are soo finally over.. and yes this is overdue but i have been havin too much fun larr.

yes so pretty much i m enjoying the freedom, dressin up meetin my gals eating and eating...and of course camwhoring lar!

oh yes i always want to blog about some issues and i ALWAYS seem to forget them the minute i am at blogger.com

and of course bloggin abt trivial issues

BUT ITS OKAY lar. I LIKE

anyway i m leavin to toronto on the 10th dec and prob coming back on the 2 jan.

its winter and i m scared because i m a loser who brings the jacket EVERYDAY to school for fear of the lecture theatres' air conditioners.

but YES i m def lookin forward to spending xmas there AND new year.

and of course LA Senza and all the shopping.hopefully they have more than jus winter wear..

and it would be a good refresher from all the 'baggage' here.

i need a break. and i deserve it.

yes so anyways,i m tryin HARD to recall what the hell i wanted to blog.

okay fine enough i jus rmbered somethin..

i need to ask, what IS UP with girls who think punjabi suits with leggings are sexy?!

or even near nice?

they are horrid and the worst part is these girls think its their own creation and uber cool.

i saw a few girls in tekka strutting around and u know they have an air. like they know they are different .

DIFFERENT indeed. but puke-worthy different.

fusion is good but there are certain boundaries i feel.

tsk. oh wells.

argh i really cant RMB Lar.

screw it.

i have been havin indian food overload.

like crazy. briyani and jus more briyani. gokul at weddings, riverwalk tandoor at some party and tekka market briyani.

alrite lazy. shall try to blog it when i rmb.

2007-10-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

I wish it was easier to hate

2007-10-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

cheh cheh. random post.

i have been eatin quite abit of salmon lately ... (as i told you, dono if i m studyin or not, sure thing is i m EATING!)
and i quite like it alot ah..
hmmm.

Okay, so its another week more to go. before the exams begin and my theres less than a month FOR THE end of this whole thing. YAY!

i find it scary how people have high expectations of me. hmmph. not that i very much care. i find it flattering but scary indeed.
just because i urm, articulate my thoughts very well, doesnt mean i wil do well RITE.
oh wells anyways.

and as much as i have dreaded history (4 essays in 3 hours takes the fun out of ANY LEARNING!) i have begun to realise beneath the studyin for exam layer, theres actually some fun in learning how our past events have impacted us, up to our present lives.
the Myannmar drama that is goin on now was soon to come lar...
with the study of challenges of political structures and all that , you realise the inherent flaws of these political governments, strengths of our Singaporean government of course.

okay, before i become a political analyst.point here ?
learning, with its pains and trauma, can be fun ... make u feel smarter ah.

alrite uber random post dont u think?

2007-10-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

hi ho merry ho..

thankew very much for the comments. to all those who tagged. to all those who sneakily read and dont tag.. dont worry lar. i dono all these techno wayang. you can safely jus tag your feelings.. FEEL..

well, anyways, i am beginning to look forward to yoga. i did like yoga and did join it out of my own will. but was scared and in the beginning, it was kind of too hurried.
But NOW, i enjoy it. the regularity of things. the sun salutation is my fav.
so, my friends, do join yoga. it relaxing..

okay i feel this impending need to share my grievances.
i might have mentioned this before, but I have this connection with maids. I would like to think that its because of my smile, my nice heartwarming smile.but those around me would beg to differ. tsk.
But within this connection, there are slight discrepancies. The following claims are substantiated by frequent observations, and do not aim to stereotype anyone .
The filipinos are ready to smile, the indonesians give me a cautious once-over...
BUt the INDIANS jus stare at me like they despise me ?
Rarely they manage a smile. even if they do, its suppressed.
My bf's maid can stare at me and EXAMINE my punjabi suit?!
slap your face.
if you have any idea why ah, please tell me. but not like i bother la. jus wanted to share my maid woes.
all the maid i had was when i was an adorable 8mth old...
she left me to myself under the block, and went to talk or do some shit lar... and my neighbour brought me home.
she slept at home and all that and my brother,(he was only 5 or 6), took the camera and captured her sleeping.
father sent her back to INDIA. and never have i ever had a maid again.
i was sent to the awesomest kindergarten.
where i had the first caning of my life...

but thats another story altogether...

I have longer hair than the boy. for once . hahaa...
to all the idiots who time and TIME again, cant hide their immense 'curiousity' about us, we are fine. thank you very much for your utmost concern.

2007-10-01T14:17:00.000+08:00

Hello.

A very sombre mood. Much has happened. (always ah, i drama mama wat)
well a few painful events.
I m goin to try and avoid ranting .
but very random post.

Justice. What IS justifiable?
What is not? What are boundaries? what are limits?
to each his/her own? what about friendships and relationships?
you have to redefine limits? compromise on the limits?

To me, you have crossed the boundary, when you stop thinkin about yours or the other person's moral integrity.

why is that when some men get angry, anythin and everythin is justified?
BULLshit. I have never EVER respected any man who lays his hand on a woman. worse, some even very liberally.
I have talked about this once , and now i find a compelling need to.
You have absolutely ZERO right over a person, much less the authority to impose yourself, and WAY WAY much less to lay your finger.
Sure, shame , regret. apologize.
worse than the man who raises his hand, is the one who thinks anger is justified.
you can punch the wall, the table, (if you want to be so drama mama)
You hitting a person shows you are incapable of any moral growth.
and if you ARE a victim of it, get OUT of it . if he does it once, he can always do it AGAIN.

Alcohol. i did a draft on this . and i deleted it .daymn.
why is alcohol your reason, your pathetic excuse?
did someone stick a gourd down ur ass and force you to down that tequila shot?
YOU ultimately had the CHOICE. to know when u are high, to know that shit has happened before.
No one stops you from having fun.
even some of my friends know, i used to get so annoyed when people get very very high.
i dowan to listen to whatever you have to say. because i dont need that smirnoff talkin. even though i do know some of it you may mean, i still second doubt it.
i sure sound like a stickler. but hey, i m not sayin u cant get high. jus dont FREAKIN use it as an excuse. a pathetic one.

BUT WHY why do we all fail to make that choice?
choice to leave, choice to stop?
we are all imperfect , agreed.

'and everyday confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters,and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense.' -Pride&Prejudice by Jane Austen

darling, you got SO worked up with jus a miniature clip on my hair.imagine my agony to see your head in your banadage which you presumably think cool and broom fringes. sigh.

2007-09-27T09:51:00.000+08:00

i feel lousy.

pretty much about how life is becomin extremely monotonous, everyone is doin their own thing..
its gettin nearer to the A's..
but as much as i complain about this whole process, after its over, I m sure to miss it a teeny weeny bit at least.
the void.

But I would definitely not miss it too much. I miss the guilt-free going outs, the BEACH, the kids, and the friends much more .

I think I m becomin very housewifey as of late.
When the weather is extremely hot and sun is GLARING , i immediately think' Do i have any clothes to wash? How nice to dry clothes'
And if i see fresh fruits and vegetables, I almost instantaneously try to conjure up a home-made recipe,with those ingredients.

Yes, nowadays, I enjoy cooking. Probably also because I have been treating my stomach like a resistant garbage truck, loading outside food ALL The time. I dont blame my mother. she cant possibly get up earlier than 4 jus to cook..
besides, she cooks dinner .
SO, yes, i have been trying... THanks to nithya, my phobia of using the oven to bake things has also lessened. so i have increased my variety of recipes...

i wouldnt say i m a terrible cook. neither am i fantastic.
I m trying and nothin YET has turned out extremely horrible.
And cookin is really somethin you can be adventurous with...
Besides, all that watching of cookin shows when i was young helped.

An example of my fantabulous thought process:
I wanted to eat hotdogs. Nithya was hungry.
SO i thought okay jus fry the hot dogs, then i saw somethin that looked like lettuce in my fruit basket. SO i said okay, we can do like a wrap.. prata wrap. with lettuce and hot dog..
but turns out the lettuce was guava ( i m blind regrettably)
so fine, idea stays we put mayo.. then i searched my cupboards..found a unopened bottle of tandoori paste. its actually a marinate paste.
OKAY, tandoori paste with hotdogs..
oh no, even better. tandoori paste on the prata, chopped hotodogs and succulent FRESH tomatoes and lots of cheese .
into the oven.
ta-da!

So much for the passion of the ladle.

Alright, back to reality. cheerios.

2007-09-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

okay . i m a doofus.
but i wanted to do this long ago. Its a little overdue but theres no expiry date for some lovin'.
Happy teachers' day!

i wanted to do a succint (i hope) post on some of the lessons some of the people have taught me in my life. cos hey, there are several life lessons teachers can never teach.
some of them have no place ANYMORE, but they sure taught me a good lesson or two.
and those who i dont mention,doesnt mean u havent taught me anythin.

in no order of importance.

chang cheng hwee
maths teacher in primary 5&6 taught me to perservere for maths. jus because u dint get it the first time,doesnt mean u wont the followin times. all u gotta go is try.

pravind paul
it IS possible for someone to hate you so much and then mean much to u.
he made me realise how much of a slut i was in primary school.(no sexual connotations) irritatin bitch rather. (yes i started early.)

lee shuqi
kindergarten best friend.taught me that friendships dont last forever.it takes two to clap. and get the signals to let go. (at that young tender age)

nithya
teachin me somethin new everyday. friendship is more than declarations on friendster.to believe in myself.

shaza.
more than the french way, she teaches me to be strong. that proximity doesnt matter for the bestest friendships

ruby
never to shortchange myself. she got extremely high once and told me she was so worried about this guy i was dating. he never lasted.

arathi
to laugh and laugh.

vasu
that karma does exist. you cheated on me, she cheated on you.
then u came runnin back to me? and u still havent escaped from ur shit hole.

vicky TP
that there exists people who jus never get sick and tired of hearing things about themselves.
and once they catch a fish, they forget the very person who they claim to be the most understandin in tryin circumstances.

shaun delano
bad boys can study hard too.
study hard,play harder

vj
big guys can come up with the most interesting fibs.
holding hands dint mean they want commitment.

devi
god is unfair
god spent abit too much time on u.
too talented lar u

vishnubf
taught me to hold on,to be strong.

vinodeediot
u can be friends for 4 years. all u gotta do is try.

suhaidah and naga
taught me to LAUGH in school. have fun even in sickening school days.all our lab experiments.

anandhi
patience and love. ur family's love.

candyman selva
u never failed to make me feel YOUNG. tsk.
taught me to fuck those who talk.

biscuitboy
bald is beautiful.

rachel darling
to be blur is bliss at times.

brother
dont care about what others say because those who talk WILL keep talkin.

poo
cheenachi can become meenachi.

ashwhiny
even if u dont agree, jus agree with the rest. yes, we DO look alike.

mrs suria
taught me to love tamil and score in it. a big HAH in the faces of those idiots.

dhivya
faith, stress busting exercises and importance of studyin

mugam
have faith. never give up. never entertain thoughts of givin up. lau.

yoga
nice guys do exist.

kabi(plasterboy)
guys who dont have tempers DO exist!

ida
god is unfair. he spent too much time on u.
haha u taught me to try , not to give up on our friendship.

okay BATTERY DYING. i will continue the list.
this is it for now.

2007-09-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

hey ho hi low.

i feel inflated and bloated.
tsk.
its all the food.

firstly would like to wish ALL The september babies HAPPY birthday.
i dint realise there were so many people i knew with birthdays in the september month.
Vani, Shaun Delano, Gobal bro, Arathi, Dhivya, Sivvani, Nazeema,Vinayak....

I dont have very good feelings about the preeeeleeems.

honestly, its jus gettin closer to the big wretch.
and ironically, i feel more compelled to enjoy.
I KNOW.what a dumbo.
i cant wait to cut the hair , it looks unpruned bush.
right now, its in a phase where its intolerable.
my hair needs COLOUR

and as of late, my tempers are TERRIBLE.
victims have been considerably understanding and tolerating.
i m not gonna blame it on the stress.

the camera seems to have missed me and broken down .

oh yes, i want to go miami. sponsors?
cover costs for the flight. i will cover for the tattoo.

Gorbachev,why couldnt u just pursue one policy.
why so many.

2007-08-26T22:42:00.001+08:00

Yes yes , the usual line, BEEN AGES. arent we al sick and tired of it. my computers really a bitch.
but anyways, do NOT for a moment think i have been buryin myself in my books, immersed in a world of my own. NOPE, indeed i have been tryin to study. but not completely zoned out from my external environment.
many many issues in the backdrop.. i M being a doopass, not wanting to deal with it.
i wont lie though for a moment that i have not been thinkin abt them.
so here goes.
not in any chronological events of happening. and as usual, i wont mention names. because i respect.
so its up to u to assume.

YOU
maybe the toppest of problems, given how much you are important to me. i seriously DO NOT know WHAT is in ur mind. i really acknowledge that i have some part to play in all the previous fights andproblems. thats why i stepped back.. what i did, or chose to do differently since that (prev) recent fight, only probably i will know.
but honestly, you have said, we need to tell each other. HEY I TRIED. because i know the importance of it to this relationship. BUT what do i get?
take you for granted? i m the harsh bitch.
if theres anyone whos takin anyone for granted, its u .... u keep THINKING, believing that we are okay with all that. jus because we have been tryin all these years.
so now, u dont even explain ... you state other reasons. i m sorry, but messages that are jus incoherent to your actions.. we dont need the messages. we need to see, because seeing is believing.
i m not doubting your words. i m doubting the coherence .
i have to stop here.
and dont say you have NOTHIN to say, or you cant express it as well as us, because if not anythin else, from all these years, you certainly have developed your own opinions abt issues.
its whether you choose to say it, whether you acknowledge it or not.

YOU
your look was so WEIRD. so awkward. so alien. i m to fault partially. i have been busy. maybe not very concerned about how you coping with school.
but i care nevertheless.
and sometimes you say you dislike them and all, but ultimately you DO hang out with them.

YOU
GET A GRIP! LET Go. this is not doin you ANY GODDAMN good. neither is it doin her any good. both of u are currently in DIFFERENT stages of life. you require different things, have different needs. its easier than it sounds . its gonna be helluva load of pain. but its much easier than hanging on.

YOU
things have jus changed. you UNDENIABLY had ulterior motives. and yes i knew them but jus did not , or chose not to anticipate the outcome of it all. i respect you for who u are, but i simply cannot bring myself to forget your change, your difference in attitude.
bask in the fame, and glory .. not newfound but recharged. but it WILL still die out.

YOU
you and you. shut up. i go to school with a functional purpose:to get my education, both of an academic one and a moral one. i consider some of the aunties, and uncles with higher regard than the lot of you. pretentious, hypocrisy. keep it to the circle, and dont stinge. theres alot to go around.
you know i Will say NO because honestly, the friends i have are not there. the ones who i know will have my back. who know that i have somethin ELSE beneath tat bitch in me.
so really , so dont tell me HOW MY hair should look like. i KNOW i have way much better fashion sense and more sensibility to display my 'coolness' in school.
i m past that phase.
shut up and enjoy urs.

YOU
the worst imperfection is to believe that you are ultimately superior to all.
HELLO, WAKE UP. see the flaws and weaknesses. which are jus mere than shakin of your hands.
you will crumble one day. i m not looking forward to it , neither am i cursing you.
i m bettin my life on this.

YOU
happy birthday. i know you have alot goin on, with the demise of your mother. once again, all that friendship gone eh. all u had to do was reply. and you couldnt even manage that. i m sorry but i m only gonna have to take that as my indicator.
nice knowin u.
have fun with the gf.

thats enough you's for a post, dont u think?
by the way, none of the above referred to my bf. this is jus to some 'curious', oh-so-concerned onlookers who ultimately cant wait to see some signs of divisiveness. sorry to disappoint you flabbiness..

alrite, i m gonna continue my ranting.
watched the top 10 today. saw the amazing difference in the wardrobe change.
a fallen in the mud jacket, there were abt 5 contestants who had their tummies spillin out from their tight shirts, defining waist THICK belts (which is an absolute NO-NO for plus size females)
and scarves which jus had to be PUT somewhere.
i do NOT proclaim myself to be a fashionista or an excellent dresser.BUT hey, as much as you are tryin to be cool, and givin the appearance utmost importance ,do stop and consider what is flatterin and what is NOT? pardon me, i DO NOT have a problem with people who plus size. or are flabby. i m a tad bit flabby myself. the victims of my critique, the unflattering clothes, not the size.
i m not blamin the contestants, because i do not mostly, its the work of the producers.

alright, enough ranting for a day dont u think?
hmmm alrite ,i miss Ugly Betty.
Tsk.
And i greedily finished the whole BBC series of Pride&Prejudice, which i swore to take my time and slowly watch.

happy 27th of August 2007 to all.

2007-07-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

do u know Singapore is one of the top 20 cities to most desirable to live in?

as per a poll/survey conducted in Europe.

Tokyo, Kyoto are the only other two Asian countries that made it to the top 20 .

Paris merely scrapped through at 19...

the point ?

dont keep frettin and complainin that the island is too small. p

yes i myself have been guilty... night life pathetic, too little shopping malls and what have you.

but lets jus keep remindin ourselves.

people would kill to be in our shoes.

Mother is back and brother is off to Jordan tomorrow

!@#@$%^ fine, not for an official trip BUT STILL!

anyway.dad said i can go for my canada trip and we are planning...!

oh yes, i cooked Mutton Keema and vegetable pilau rice and pepper broccoli yesterday!

with my best friend. thank gawd she was there.

and it turned out good!

dad as usual said it was nice, and somethin different

haha

oh yea and my YOGA class yesterday. cobra, cowherd , camel wat have you.

and then after that, i heated up the food and met sinthu,arafath and mugam.

and they liked my food too! (they better)

on friday, i suddenly thought abt my girlfriends and i absolutely dreaded that i have not been able to meet up with them.they are so busy with work too.

haiks and their own lives.

i miss Rooby and shaza of course...

ARGH!

its been ages since we met up..

hmmmmm !

these girls i prob end up bumpin into them....and feelin so guilty.

they always tried to meet up and i couldnt... and now they are a tad busyyyyy

nevertheless, i miss these girlfriends.

alrite. blogger is LAGGIN.

i have way too many old pics and still i have more. but i m sleepy and its raining.

oh so comfy to sleep...

and another week begins..............

2007-07-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

this one is nathan's motorbike helmet...
yes random random pic.

last sat....
on the way to ECP!

suddenly missed the hair.. so OLD pics.. when i was 16?

and then these are more recent...actually the most recent!

i made him do it!!! hahahahaha

thankew for the lovely PRESENT!

first the brother goes hongkong , then my daddido goes vietnam AND THEN my mother goes HONGKONG.

i wanna shout wail and whine and protest.. i ALSO WANT HOLIDAY!!!!

argh.... but its okay. at least i got presents.

went to the hospital on Monday.

i cant wait for these 4 months to whiz away...yet i feel tiime is movin soo fast.

its really tough controlling all the damn temptations.

oh yes..but it sure doesnt help with everyone contributing to it...
thankew dad for the levis!

arghhhh ! guilt is a horrid feeling. and not doin anythin abt guilt is even worse.

YOU: dont give me your goddamn half pathetic smiles. that much civility i give to you BECAUSE you are his friend.
stupit bitch.

2007-07-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

i m in school... supposed to be doing a literature forum online now.

but i already did my post.. so i m jus waiting for my reply from my teacher who is at home .. and comfortably delivering her replies...

haiks. i m irritated. i have become so absent minded of late.
i lost my ezlink.
and theres only 4 mths more to my student status and i find it absolutely cumbersome to go and make a new ez link card. and i dont want to buy the adult card as of yet .
i m a cheapo la k.

lols.

devi IDIOT has posted spastic pics of me. so disgusting.. DELTE it off. well you know being the 2% goofball i am, i HAVE to take goofy pics. so yes, but dont post it up LAR!

ah hah, the teacher has replied my post. fantabulous.

this post was so irrelevant and random.
basically a time-pass.

2007-07-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

i gotta make this fast.

haiks.jus when i tot my comp was all good and repaired, it had to screw up on me again.
yea the keyboard. cant type i,k, or an 8
so i m using the brother's laptop.

hmmm so wats been u..nothin much.
cept for hyperventilation.
the new word for the rest of the year is oxygen. yeap rather BREATHE.

god knows whats happening but he asks me to breathe and blah blah blah....

i think i need some RETAIL therapy.
and photos.
hahhaha

last sat was fun.... i finally took pictures to camwhore abit.
sadly the pics are with nithya and pooh.
so ..yes... we went to VIVO city... and had a mini blast .
missed the girlfrenz

and yes i received my present... ckin2u.
thankew shan .... for the effort and the present.
the bottle is pretty and it smells godly!
but i havent finished the lancome one ..my auntie bought me these cute bottles of body mist... and the flavours are vanilla mist, pear caramel, coconut sorbet and cocoa bliss . they dont jus sound good, they smell like a CANDYSHOP.
so yes, i got enough scents to last me a year.

i will post the pics soon enough. once i get them.
hmm

alrite ,apart from the cheeriness... theres the whole terrible feeling i have been havin ..the cause i cant quite put my finger to.
but yes, i feel frustrated.
i find it difficult to breathe (literally and metaphorically)
argh. i would tell YOU if i knew.
but then again, maybe i do and its the fear and the reactions which are preventin me from sayin it.
jus maybe.

argh.

i need the internal happiness. i hate the fact that i sound emo and all depressed. nevertheless feel like that.

i jus need to be HAPPY once again.

and i cant force this bliss. i cant fake it.
i cant crack any more jokes .
i cant pull off any more accents to make you laugh.

coz I WANT TO LAUGH.

2007-06-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

i m so fkin pissed!
i jus lost all the clubbin photos by accident..
some blard nero express programme cheat my feelings. only managed to upload those of my family at swensens for my father's birthday.

yea, and my funny adorable mother bought him DKNY delicious.
shes so funny. so easily convinced by salespeople.. the guy supposedly said its unisex and she was so happy. it was like a bargain that she could use it..
i and my brother jus exchanged funny looks..

ARHHH! i liked the clubbin pics.. coz i looked nice. ARgh. and i have not been camwhoring like i used to..
so yes, i was wearing my favvv brown topshop top..
ARGHHH!!!!!!
i hate this. like so god damn annoyin.

and i have absolutely no pics in this com now because its been reformatted n my brother has yet to transfer pics from the drive to this comp. yea extra drive.

i watched a really nice heartwarmin picture... We are Marshall.
a very nice american movie abt american football..
i m a big fan of these true team work in sports movies.
yea some can get pretty cliche...
the losin team, new coach comes, team members sceptical, team breaks down, coach revives team, and the exhilarating last winning game.
some love affairs here n there and so on...
but this one was abit different. starting a team from scratch under this famous football team because all the members died in a plane crash..
matthew mcconaughey (hope i spelt it right) is cute, and mighty good.
im not sure of his co actors, but the acting was really good.
to see grown up men cryin ( yes, its a slight fetish) hahaha.

I have been a huge fan of Remember the titans because its funny AND heartwarming. i can rmb how they would dance before the match. wa damn cute.
and this one adds onto my list now!
bravo.

yes, my brother is an evil influence, he makes me watch these movies, motivates me to go out, yesterday he asked me to go bowling with the cousins... today he laughed when i told him we shouldnt borrow the vcd, went into the shop anyways and asked me wat movie i wanted to watch...
terrible lar u!

i feel terrible. i read of the sales in the newspapers and its not fuN!
all the sales are starting tomz. arghh!!
oh yea, i arranged my clothes. finally. like a week ago..
tshirts in a box.
sleeveless and spags in another.
long sleeve cold weather clothers in a drawer.
punjabi suits up on the hanger ....
so yes... and i realised i havent worn some of the clothes i bought like 1 yr ago.. tsk tsk.

and YET i wanna shop. theres TOO many things i wanna buy.

terrible. i have stopped producin ANY substantial posts.

i been wanting to talk abt coupla issues for some time.
-possesive boyfriends
-ettiquette. yes Funeral ettiquette, show ettiquette. GOD, whoever said man has become civilised, should be rolled in the mud 5 times. (dont roll ur eyes, everyone knows im randomly lame by now!)

But i m LAZY. with a capital L.

tomorrow i have a bbq to go to.
i miss takin pictures
but my eyebrows are terrible and my hair has grown.(yessss thats FAST!)
so un-diva'ish'
HAHAHA
so yes.

and mom is bringing back pizza to make! how yum.
yes yes the BOONS u get with a mother workin in coffee bean..
been a long post with nothin much. ciao.

2007-06-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

[Chorus:]Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no'

Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no'

Cause I got you babe'

Cause we gonna fight

Oh yes we gonna fight

Believe we gonna fight

We gonna fight

Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together

But it don't matter no'

Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together

Nobody thought we'd last forever

I feel 'em hopin' and

Thingsbetween us don't get better

Men steady comin' after you

Women steady comin' after me

Seem like everybody wanna go for self

And don't wanna respect boundaries

Tellin' you all those lies just to get on your side

But I must admit there was a couple secrets

I held inside

But just know that I

TO always apologize

And I'ma have you first always in my heart

To keep you satisfied

i miss youuuuu!even more than durin the 3weeks. come back faster LAR!

2007-06-16T10:25:00.001+08:00

HELLO! i m supposed to be studyin.
then again i m supposed to be studyin all the time.

yes with one week away to my common tests. i m screwed.

You see God, i TRY very hard to study.

then comes along my FATHER who wants to bring my nephews and nieces out .
yes last friday, my father decided to be a good grandfather (no,my bro isnt married, my cousins kids) and bring 5 children to dinner. and he wanted to bring them to sakae sushi. we are talkin oldest sec 1, youngest primary 2,.. and i m like?!?? they would probably tear the seaweed apart and think complain the rawness of the food and puke up all over me.
so thank god there was a long queue.
and we went to good ole kFc... and after which some mac ice cream.
and the kids decided to stay inmy house.
u see , my cousins are all scared to let their children in our house, coz its NOT child-friendly. my mother and her expensive fancy antique collecting habits.
yes, u might have guessed it right, to date, I am the leading 'breaker' of all her antiques.
i have broken a vinayagar statue (said it was the strong gush of wind), her silver buddha statue, a gazillion glasses and cutlery..

so yes, some alarm bells rang ah.. then aiya, its damn fun to have these kids. so they begged me to talk to their parents.
REMINISCING moments : coz i used to ask my cousins to talk to my mother to let me stay over. my mother was a tyrant lar i tell u.

mission accomplished. all came over . took out our beds,combined me and my brothers. and we DECIDED To sleep. coz 2 of the girls had tution at 10am the next day.
but NO,they boys decided to BEG ,plea , and coerce my brother into takin the Xbox all the way from woodlands.
and so they played.

wat did they do while they waited for my brother? target ME
kid : 'akka/sithi , we play blanket bury'
ME: 'play lar,within the bed zone k?'
kid : 'okay,yay!'
after 5 mins....

kid: 'can we bury u???'
ME: 'NO!"
they dint actually need an answer, they proceeded to bury me and afterwhich the biggest boy, NICHOLAS jumped on me.

ME: "(struggling) stop please. pain larrr'
continued playin.....

ME: 'EH WANT ME TO SLAP UR FACE IS IT?"
and then they stopped.

but they continued to spoil my sleep, bite me (i know wat u all thinking) , and consistently ask me questions.

the next morning, was mac breakfast.

but u know wat, i love these kids.

and yes, then the next day was clubbinggggggg.
cousin's bday.
danced and danced the night away.

Yogi B' show, warehouse sale
OHYES, i went to the victoria secret warehouse sale...
with mango zara and guess.
hmm wasnt that fantastic. they soldpretty much the same stuff....

Like that how to studyyyyy?
Die.

2007-06-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

i m rather irritated with myself. its the hair lar.

shit ... yes yes, i actually left the bush uncut for a while.... after my syf... because the initial plan was to grow it till after the a's....straighten it and do somethin different.

but shucks, i jus couldnt stand it . and once again, like i always do , did it on my raging impulses

Yes, of late, i have OFTEN disregarded my rational school of thought and JUS did FREAKIN did some stuff. for myself.

like chop the hair off. i walked past the damn barber and he gave me his wave and smile...NO, it was not that i couldnt resist his toothy 50 yr old smile, the memories of the shaven sides and the air wafting so close to ur scalp... and the NON-agonizin moments over hair bands, and dumb ass hair accessories jus struck me too hard..

then i had rebound. as i flipped thru magazines and saw posh beckham with her crop.

PAULO's fault lar. wanna go POP-u-LAR all. i was good readin the damn archie comics. haha actually it was ME who took the mag.

some hilarious FINDS when i googled for short hair for women. like WTF?

anyway, i dont care if u think its jus MAYIRU and why im makin such a big fuss. its MY MAYIRU..i m sure not obsessed like some ppl... and i have maintained the same hairstyle for a considerable amt of years. so yes, i wil live. not for you, you or YOU. but for me!

its quite ironic tho. my mom made sure my hair was short when i was young, i rmb the days she dragged me to my uncle house in little india, and he would run a razor thru my hair.. while i cried sobbed and swore that i would grow my hair till my ass as i squatted over the toilet watchin my hair drop agonizingly.

now its jus funny how i enjoy the hair .

ahhh yes, wat a hairy post. quite enough bimboticness for all of us yea? toodles.

2007-06-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHH!!!!

i know i know . its been tremendously long hasnt it.

well i didblog quite some time back. but the whole post got jammed and it dint get published. and knowin how short-tempered i am, i cursed , i swore and i vowed never to come back to blogger.

for some time..

YAY!!! i m back. hmm.though i m not too sure anyone reads stuff here anymore.

but yes, life has been filled with tremendous amounts of ups and downs.

seriously, many many emotional rollercoasters...

many many learning experiences.

dont u jus hate it when i give such general shit.

HAHAHHA...

welll, lemme jus RUN Through whatever i possibly can

purchase of my first (HOPEFULLY LAST) Wig... for a dance.

hahahahah in ur face to those who thought that was my real hair in friendster. SHIT buckaroos. u tot i had the patience to grow myhair so long.

hahaha.

OH BY THE WAY, i jus cut my hair today. yeaback. after growin it for like 7 months. i cant stand it lar. looks like an unpruned bush. (rmb, laugh , but only I have the fuggin rights to deeeeg ma hair, u got it mate?)

ah yes, SYF...tensions, leg pains, DRAMAA mama!!!, rushin, tension tension TENSION TENSION moments, stress-i-wanna-fuckin-break-that-mama-face-moments ...(mama can be substituted to OORU at times)

no offense, its jus specific dumbasses i wanted to strangle.

moments of EUPHORIA,success, happiness, perserverance, swEAT!

I LOVED MY syf dance, and yes i will dance it no matter how many times u ask me to ...with that same smile on my face...because it really makes u happy. god knows how ppl manage to dance that dance with a sulky face ALL THE TIME.

tests, school,groan, gossips.

BESTFRIENDS MOMENTS!! johnny depp classics, baked apples and bananas with cinnammon and chocolate sauce..

SLEEP, lack of it.

poooohhh moments...FIGHTS, quarrels, HUGGLES!strength!

family moments, familial BLISS, dinners, cookings, movies, GOSSIP.

feel ugly moments, HAIR HAIR HAIR.

sick sick days...breathlessness, leg sprain, severe bronchitis, sinusitis,migraine

TIRED moments, sleep sleep sleep sleep

asian civilisations museum moments. pictures pictures PICTURES

SURPRISE birthday!!! planning , decor, FOOD, stressssss

really,

theres too much. but this pretty much is it.

okay, previously, i blogged about somethin that REALLY REALLY REALLY IRKS ME.

but it dint get posted.

hopefully i can try to add the same angst and vigour i included in that post.

it still does FUCKIN IRK Me by the way...

so what is it

PEOPLE who jus DONT flush.

yeah, heard me right, DONT FREAKIN FLUSH.

okay, reference to public toilets..

WHAT IS UP WITH PEOPLE WHO DONT FLUSH?!

it doesnt matter if u did business number one or two, u STILL FLUSH, coz seriously, its freakin disgusting!

its somethin so so so natural , so immediate, yet i dun understand HOW people can simply guilt-free walk out of their cubicles .

and yes, i m referrin to females, coz i havent had the extreme 'honour' of being in the males..

but really, u guys arent that better off either, 60% of guys dont flush after they have done it either.

so there.

but really, isnt flushin akin to cleanin up your shit ridden asshole with toilet paper/ (water).

pardon me for the crude analogy , (Could have used a simpler one like washin ur hands after you have been to the toilet, but hey, people do that even lesser)

its like YOU clean up ur own shit, LITERALLY?

so why not? why simply not?
its jus one button, effortlessly lean over, probably u dun even have to , jus point out ur finger ,and press, and jus push, and yes, if u dont see the shit swirling as of yet, TRY AGAIN. push a little harder.

damn these civilised people.

oh yes, amongst ALLLL These otherthings i have done, i have also accomplished some lessons on self discovery along the way.
lesson 1: i am starting to hate crowds.
no you see, no one really loves crammin up their ASS into crowds, but yes, i m beginnin to loathe crowds.that i avoid certain days and certain places.
maybe its the severe bronchitis. i need to breatheeeeeeeeeeeeee.
u know.
pahhh.

so do tag me . say hi. some of u probably GAVE UP On my blog. how dare you!but yes, holla so i do know u still alive.

much love munchkins..

a little HURRAH for the automatic draft saving thing.

2007-03-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

The Pursuit Of HappYness is an AWESOME movie...

oh god, probably it was a blessing in disguise that i havent watched a proper movie in ages (say,3mths)

and the decision to watch the movie was sooo impromptu...and its always these impromptu movies which are so daymn good.

okay, so i was weeping like I jus found out I have terminal cancer. (sayin someone died is jus too cruel, so jus bare with the analogy)...

But the kid is so cute, and I ADORE Will Smith, which is such a bonus. Jade Pinkett Smith, u are one lucky woman..

Its his real son, and daymn, the father-son chemistry is jus good. And of course, there isnt that too sweet or mushy sentiments and its all jus fitting with the emotional peaks... Yes, it might have seemed a bit far fetched with the 'cliche' domino effect bad timing..but really, Will Smith has done such a good job..

GAWD.

dont forget the tissues okay.

lols..

DAYMN its a good movie...

theres different types of messages presented, the main being determination , and the vicious cycle of poverty...

so WATCH it.

haha.

Its really funny. Better than most of you people who have known me for barely 2 years, some even less than 3 solid months, I know myself.

I know my strengths and weakness. And I dont jus take decisions just like that, especially when I am in leadership positions.

I know my character traits better than anyONE of you .

So, really, jus shut up.

politics, politics, politics.

so funny lar u all.

2007-03-02T09:14:00.000+08:00

I have been wanting to do a post about responsibility (or rather the lack of it ) for a pretty long time but i cant now once again due to time constraints..

Yes, so a couple of things have come to an end...
The drama competitions, Dhool dance competitions, and CNY holidays, and yes almost a whole term comin to an end already.

Dhool dance competitions :
Damn voting.. My brother did quite an interesting post about voting .. and I know theres been an uproar about the whole results..
All I can say is, the teams ( SOME) did really put up a good fight, and with all the effort seen...
MY principle for any competitions that I have taken part is in that worse than losing a competition, is to win it without deservin it.
SO yes, ultimately, its not that trophy (but hell yea, we are talkin some beeg money here), but that people satisfaction when they come up to you and say , 'DAmn you guys were good, and you DESERVED it more than .... '

So yes, its been a long and tough fight for all.
Congrats to all. Teams have had to fend off criticism, live up to expectations(themselves?judges?people?) and even slog their ass off week after week...
But we all know the world aint so polished for ppl to recognise the various efforts team put in.
People jus criticise and criticise , sittin in their comfy Courts Sofa at home.
Judgin performances by face value.

I talk alot abt this because almost every other Sundays, i was at mediacorp...
and I know how things go about...
So really, its over. Let's move on now.

Before that:
DIVERSITY-kudos to u girls even though we know wat the REAL result was supposed to be. It wasnt merely girl power. I think u guys did a pretty amazin job week after week. TRIDIAC-fantastic competition spirit. we know how u have awed everyone , HIPHOP. a big ugh to all the wannabes . this is the REAL thing.
Anarchy 99- Great effort... Creativity and so innovative.
Steps-Unexpected and interesting ideas.
NUS vidiyal- IT is NOT an easy thing to fend off expectations of biasedness towards u guys and NUS ooh ahh stuff and i think u guys did a pretty amazin job of proving what you guys really have.

Yes, i bought a lovely Lancome mascara!!! finally. i wanted the Chanel one but oh wells.. the lancome! yayyy.
I m keepin my eyes open for good eyeshadows.. so yes...if you do have recommendations, TAG.

Ups and down in school life....
But I m gettin thru it.Politics that are SO hilarious.
Gotta Start buckin up work..and sleep less durin every goddamn lecture...
My legs hurt.. Have been havin Physical Education for 3 consecutive days.
Not forgettin dance...

Alrite , I have to run off..
Cheers.

2007-02-21T12:10:00.000+08:00

hi ho jolly LO!

lols. rite. anyway, just a little update ... since its been quite long .. my birthday on 11feb was a very simply and yet a sweet happy affair..thanks to my special one!
:)

dinner at cafe iguana...
macho STRAWBERRY maragaritas..
blackened tuna.. with kidney beans and yummy rice
1/2 grilled chicken
choc orange shots!
and of course .with the special company!
and yes a huge thankew to you for gettin me the loveliest presents too..
not one , not 2 but 3!
i was a happy girl...
and of course.. temple visit, surprise by the besties.. our good ole ruckus at macs and camwhoring to the maximum.
:)
briyani lunch and the surprise family gift, an IPOD NANO!

okay. i gotta stop.
yes, thanks to al those who called and messaged. very very unexpected...
and those who were adorably apologetic , 'I know you dint wanna be disturbed but happy birthday'.... damn u schmackpoos.
(god knows what it is , but not to worry, it has a positive connotation)

Lols. Yes, but despite that day, everythin else has been a mad rush.. tension tension...
and of course CERTAIN lovely ones from school make it all the more endurable.

so yes, i look like a mini forest gump..
wat with unthreaded eyebrow forest fires and the bush of the hair ..
but yes, i m tired okay!
and yes, once u have read it , dont start examining my eyebrows..
lols.
and only I, SATOISHINI can mock myself.
so fuggg offf.
i m in a high mood.
figured thats the only way i can keep goin..
keep being high, you wont feel the fatigue.
so yes, u catch me doin some weird madcap dance to tokyo drift wearing asymmetrical multicoloured striped shirt with pink and yellow curlers in my hair , FUCK YOU. you will NEVER catch me doin that.
Gotcha there. hah!

hahaha (evil laughter)..
Pardon me... I m in my character. drama competition is tomorrow.

2007-01-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

urm,

i jus have a small request. can i jus feel happy on my birthday?
with no blocked nose, painful hammered headaches...
with no need to think abt who i need to meet, what i need to prioritise, how i need to schedule my time,what i am goin to sacrifice, what i have to compromise and who i m goin to hurt?

i dont need a cake or surprises or even calls.

i really dont. Dont need any i love yous or anythin.
i would jus like to feel me. satoishini.
can?
even for jus for 15 mins on that day... coz somehow, somethin has been lost.

i dont need bling,shoes, or any presents.
i jus would urm, want a day not to think abt what is my worth, what do i really matter.

if its too much, just grant me this, can i sleep on my birthday?
for one whole day, with no messages or calls or no occassional wake up to think abt who i havehurt andor wat i have to do?

thanks.

2007-01-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

she doesnt deserve any of this.
at all.
none of you gave her a chance to speak.
jus shut up and listen.
she has been thru so much.
and my heart really goes out to them
u will NEVER, mark my BLARDY words, u will NEVER find one like her.
AT ALL.
shes been thru hell. and so has he..
if this was any other couple, they would married, have had 3 kids and never even sniffed your way.
but they dint.
all they did was TRY and TRY and TRY ..
to do what?
to seek your blardy blessings.
and what do they get in return?
nothin.
all i see is all of you pouncing on ONE fuckin thing he did wrong.
why havent any of u seen what they have done?
what he has sacrificed....
what she has compromised.

WHY IS it always abt you and your disappointment?!

i feel helpless . yet i have never felt this much pain ...
for her...........i really dono wat to do.
she deserves to be happy.
she really does.
please God, i beg you.
Give her abit of attention.
Coz shes still holding on to this faith of u and now, only u seem to be the only possible saviour.

Loving you is giving you the permission to hurt me, but trusting you not to. -A lovely quote . Credits to Vinod eeediot for tellin me abt it.

2007-01-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

argh its been long...

I shall talk abt shoppin. Always brightens up my mood.
yeap, i wanna shop.
i cant decide between a lancome or chanel mascara...
saw some lovely makeup at the Makeup Store at Harbourfront...
i need to get shoes...
i m gonna do a mass shoe massacre.. my shoes and flats are so worn out.. i gotta throw them out..
gotta buy heels and some substantial flats..
and a bag of course.

yes, I dont have much time to watch tv.. but as of late, coincidentally I have been watchin this series and grown to like it very much.
Miami Ink...
Yes, about a bunch of guys in Miami (Duh) havin a tattoo shop and yes their customers come to the shop ask for various tattoos for various reasons....
Some as a symbol of them movin on in life, growin up , to remember someone they lost , for the beginning of somethin new (opening of album)...
Alot of reasons..
.And it is a HUUUGE bonus that Amy is cute. Amy is the bald guy in charge of the shop ..he is Hot stuff. and yes, literally, he DOES have a hot temper.
oh wells. very cute indeed.

I have grown to dislike MTV.. And my channel preferences are either travel&living, National geographic and star world.
even star movies annoy me. and needless to say, trashy music tv.
GOD.
i dint know everybody loves raymond was this hilarious.
GOD.
its so yum to watch it.

Alrite, I m sufficiently happy.
i shall toodle off to reality.
this was such a randomfied post . ciao.

2007-01-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

SHIT! i forgot to mention a SUPER key event that happened to me in 2006!

I CUT my hair. and yesh... ushered in a whole new dimension to my character...
anyway, my hair is growin now..and i m missin theeeeee mohawk already...
so if u see me , dont laugh okay. dont be mean.
i m havin a different look now. its urm called the urm, urban fashionista look.

here are some lovely OCIP pics.
FINALLY jack helped me burn them into a cd...

k i m sick. and not feelin too good. yea my nose is blocked. breathin thru my mouth which has resulted in a severe sore throat and cough.
so yes. stop askin me if i jus woke up. i m not that much of a pig.

im not gonna explain the pics. jus enjoy. lazy lar.

2007-01-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

Okay, firstly i swear it was NOT my intention to update precisely one month later. But yes, happy new year!

what a 2006 year.

SRJC first three months.Camp @ pulau ubin with the TENT girls.group faciliator. difficult pai kia girls.
The Big O results .
Entrance into AJC and the college life.
Competitions, Personal goals.
Exams, holidays.Singapore Model United Nations Conference at NUS. Overnight at NUS hostel. Shocked at being awarded MOST HONOURABLE DELEGATE
Meeting a special someone.
My girlfriends' new lives.
School events.
Social life.
The TENT.
Class politics.
Leadership roles.
Perceptions, impressions and spicy gossip.
Pertapis Childrens Home.
Preparations And the Actual Overseas CIP trip to Mae Hong Son, Chiang Mai.
OCIP-one helluva experience and my own personal challenges i put myself thru.
Tears, warmth, respect, smiles, joy, innocence, simplicity and so much more to learn.
Hongkong trip with Father - Why my dad IS the undeniably BEST dad.
Eye-opener. Uncle.

And yes Xmas will never be the same again.
Family is so important. And how my family came together, and became stronger by this unforgettable event on Xmas.
The 3am call. The tears, the sadness, the pain, the family ties, the memories that will stay,and the unecessary gossip that we dont care about.

Yeap, I hope you can make the best out of the above written. Lols.
One thing that I m proud of myself is that I have achieved my personal goals that I set myself in 2006.
It wasnt an easy year, i admit. But it was truly a year which helped me to realise who IS truly important.

I have done what I have done. And now in 2007, I have my own things to achieve.
And really, I am a fighter.

TO YOU: If you think ur comments hurt me, dont bother thinkin again. THEY dont.
Those who truly matter know they matter and thats what matters.
Have never been one to do somethin and take a loud hailer to Announce it to the whole world.
I dont do things for cip hours, for verbal praises or for pats on the back.
I am a fighter. And fight i Will.

So there, i updated.
Lols. Yes alot has been goin on. And i thank all of you who have been avid readers of my blog.
I appreciate that you think I actually post stuff worthy to constantly read.
Keep tagging and i hope the year 2007 will be a smashin year for you. (Literally)

And yes, please appreciate what you have . And embrace your family and friends.
Fuck the world. And enjoy yourselves.

2006-12-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

hello. i m currently typing from Sukasonghorn School, Mae Hong Son, Northen Thailand.

yeap one week has passed. and judgin from the tagboard, no one has missed me much.

i will be back after two more weeks.

I m here on a community service project. service learning.
and yes, i M a teacher.
i teach p3 maths and english, M1(sec1) science and M6(science).

yeap , arts student totally teachin science. but the thing is my whole team underestimated their academic abilities and we prepared lesson plans that turned out to be useless.

these kids are somewhat similar level of even better(science topics) than us.
jus that they learn everything in thai language.

and their english is really zero.
initial period here was bad; lesson plans were useless, kids stared at you, u stare at the kids.
their english sucks and our thai sucks.
so yes, but somehow, we managed and we have gotten the hang of things.
we do impromptu lesson plans and teach them english rather than maths and science.
translate,use the dictionary.
the food here is yum!

but the weather is different. in the night, it is freezin cold and it gets dark at 6.
afternoons are relatively hot.

the people here are warm and friendly, the kids generally want to learn and are respectful.

am i homesick..
YEAP!

but its not the phone or the computer or the heater baths that i miss.
its my loved ones of course.

but its a challenge i put myself thru and told myself that I WOULD survive...
and yes,
i have learnt so mcuh that i couldnt have at all anywhere else.

so i thank God for the opportunity and i hope all of you are doin good.

God Bless.
Khao Phun Ka. (thankew)

eh my thai quite fierce okay. dont play play.

and darleengs, dont expect souveniers, i m not here on a holiday.

i hope my girlfriends are doing good. i miss u guys.
i love love love u pooh! muah.

today is the King's birthday and we all have to wear yellow. hence the colour of this post.

2006-11-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHH TA DA!

ok point of matter even before i start anythin : Scientists say that if LADIES, you have a taller ring finger than your index finger, it means you tend to think more masculinely.
oot.
i like.
As quoted by Child Of OurTime.
As of late, I have been in contact with KIDS KIDS and MORE KIDS.

Lols, hence the tv programme. I watched Super Nanny and Child Of Our time.BAck to Back.

Yes, I went to Hongkong last Tuesday and was back on Sunday.
Stayed in my Uncle's apartment. And yes, i fell sick. Food poisoning.
DONT ASK WHAT I ATE.
But yes, hongkong is an interesting city. VERY VERY developed. And the service IS way better than Sg's.
The trip raised a few alarming points to me.
Hongkong is REALLY buckin up on its tourism. and Sg has alot to compete with.
And seriously guys, their service is way better than ours.
Which is a very surprising thing because I always heard negative stuff abt the place.
But the most alarming thing was really, the future of Singapore in the tourism field..
BTW, their trains are called MTR. They have similar 'EZ-link' systems. Tap tap tap.
almost better.

Yes. And of course the best experience to take away from the Hongkong trip was time spent with my dearest father. I fell sick and he REALLY took care of me. Stayed up and gave me my medicine.
AnD GUYS, food poisoning is somethin u wouldnt want to kenna. I VOMITTED EVERY 15 mins.
I couldnt drink water because I would puke even that out.
EW.

Once i was back, had to get back to my service learning. PERTAPIS home.
My class had organized a 3 day camp for the kids of PERTAPIS home and so 20,21,22 were the execution dates.
Very nervous, afraid.
But all turned out good. The experience was truly fun.
And a few of the biggest lessons?
I had this group of guys who were abit difficult. One guy was in the sick bay, the big guys dint wanna play with the younger guys. worst of all, they dint wanna put up a finale item.
Got together with them , talk talk talk...
Second day was jus abit better.. Towards the later part though, when discussing for the finale item , things picked up. after PERSUADING them for 30 mins, and tryin to get them interested in doin SOMETHIN, they decided to put up a skit. *thankGOD!
and i tell you , after that, they were so excited and cute preparing that, it was all worth it really.

Ah yes, at the end of the three days, i felt a slight sense of accomplishment. And yes, alil happy.
It was a combined effort of my class ... and the kids of PERTAPIS home imitated me, waved bye, sang dailamo to me. Lols. its amazing how good you can feel when u just see them smile really.

okay, past all this, i have been busy with my OVERSEAS CIP stuff . mad rush with lesson plans, packin of books. and i really applaud my vice in charge and the logistics team who have been stayin back everyday. god, well all's almost done.
and i m flyin off on TUESDAY. flight is at 605 and i have to report at 4 am.
MADNESS LARRRRRRRRRRRR.
grr...

but oh wells, i will be back for christmas partyin okay. And new year celebrations.
HONESTLY, as much as I dread the A's. i cant wait for this year to end.

A THANK You to my pooh. Who has been totally understandin with my mad rush.
and very patient.
fantastic thursday. *winks.

to the rest, amen.
eat good food. 'Cook it, Boil it, Peel it OR JUST FORGET IT'.

i think i m soooo funny.
:)

2006-11-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

This is to someone I really got to thank.

He hated me like how the Hitlers hated the Jews. Yelped whenever he saw me in the bus.
I thought it was all good fun.
Then we became oookayy in secondary school.. Or so I thought.
Then he realised he still hated me.
And fuck reality struck me. this GUY really really hated me.

The rest that happened after that, I dont recall.
He came to talk to me about a friendship that we wanted to salvage...
And the rest that happened.....

Pravind Paul. Thank you for everythin you have done for me to date.
You have been a FRIEND.
When you call, you call to jus ask me how i am.
Not to know where is another friend, where the nearest shop sells shoes.
There is much sincerity.

And I can talk to you abt anythin?
From the boys, to my girlfriends....
All i gotta tell you is "dei i feel like crap".
Screw it dei, sometimes I dont even tell you.
You just come and msn me, 'Mike, why ur nick like that?'
And we had such awesome TAB moments.

You never hurt me dei. U never did.
Only the times when you ought to, You told me the truth ,painful or not.

You never made me doubt your presence. You were always there when I needed you.
There have been so many fucked up days when people made me fuckin doubt their friendships, make me feel as though I dint need to put in so much effort at times...
You were never a reason for any one of that days.

The ones that i sometimes give up everythin for dont care dei.
But you, who I never gave up anythin for, care so much.

You never made me fuckin paranoid.
You were never one of those to leave me thinkin what I FUCKIN did wrong, did i Do anythin to make you feel this way.

Thank you Paul.
Thank you for being a friend.

2006-11-06T11:55:00.000+08:00

ITS BEEN So long hasnt it?
I bet none of you missed me enough though.
*cough* BITCHES.

like i have previously mentioned before, i totally have so many things i wanna blog at times..
so many society-perturbing issues.

yes, so the festive season has temporarily subsided...
Deepavali was major pigging out . and majorrrr collections.
dressing up i like.

Ah yes, groundbreaking momentS?
nawww..
i have been a relatively happy girl....
cept for the occassional hospital moments.
Grandad was admitted, then cousin , then grandad again... IN ICU..
but hes way better now.

Ah yes, okay. I been wanting to talk abt this for long enuf.
WHAT IS UP with people who dig their noses in public places like there is NO TOMORROW?
Damn.
And this is just not senior citizens ah.... I have seen middle-aged people doin it
ITS SO GROSS.
It jus throws you off, seeing people dig their nose.. They stare into space and really, the immense intent with they do it, makes u think they are thinking of effective solutions to combat terrorism.
And yes, the best ones are those who have the audacity to CHANGE FINGERS and dig some more! KNN.
One finger filled with filth not enough, you still alternate between your middle finger and ur index finger. And you burrow through that nostrils of yours.
I M NOT DONE AH.
And in the end, a wave of satisfaction washes over your face, like you just had a major one mind-blowing orgasm.

PS: I observed all of this for an objective purpose. Certainly NOT because I enjoyed watching all of this. The objective purpose is of course to inform all of you that you will be SENT TO HELL if you are my friend and you got the guts to do this.

Ah yes, I feel a sense of relief now that I have said it. But really, people who dare to do such things SHOULD NOT BE pardoned.
They should be punished by Anniyan. hah. LAME.

okay enough.
I will go home and post pictures.
Lovely lovely pics.

And yes, anyway, I am tryin to catch up with everyone before the 20th Nov.
So , yes, its once again a mad rush..

Cheerios.

2006-10-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

its abt time i WROTE somethin eh?
lols.
Yes, happy happy deepavali to all of you!

Today was an exhausting day really.
I got some sleep in between.. so im not that DEAD yet.

Before today's events..
Jus a few highlights...

UTSAV parade.
Yes I held a banner for Miss Vasantham Girls...
With Esh...
:)

I was just tired... And i hated the waiting.. The banner was a sickening specimen which had to be CONSTANTLY pulled tight!
grrr.
so yeap, theres so much talk and hype about MV. The finals are nearing..
Theres the politically correct gonna make it one, confirm NOT gonna make it, our own personal favourites..
SO yes, let us watch the finals and see..
To me, MV should have the personality and capacity to represent indians across the island.
Eloquent in BOTH tamil&english. Coz after all, mind it, u are representing MISS VASANTHAM.
a tamil channel. Not chee cheong fun wannabe channel.
Not only that, i think the audience are NOT stupit people . We can see through sheer fakeness.
we need some on-screen sincerity..
and of course, ur performin abilities should be of BEARABLE standards of course.

So , bring it all out, and we will see.
:)

I wanna go shopping. I did things slightly different this year.
I am goin to go shoppin after all the mighty collections.
I only got myself a shirt.. and the slippers i SWEAR my life by.
My comfy heavenly m)phosis slippers.
I have bought 5 pairs to date..
two wear&tear till quite bad..
the other two are comin to the stage.

yes. I m a very flats person.
And of late, I have been attending occassions in need of me in some presentable heels.
SO i got to get another new pair.
Dont take me wrong, I adore shoes. And Sarah Jessica Parker's shoe fetish in Sex & The City is woohoo.
But yea, I have realised my sickening ways of impulse shopping and i m tryin to cut it down thru the shoe shopping at least .

And some heels are oh so fuckin gorgeous.
gripz and nine west...

YES.

many many lovings.

I took this deepavali to enjoy the noise and celebration of love.
And I thank god for another deepavali that was filled with nothing short of the love and joys in some relationships.

It was mighty good to see some friends and relatives I havent seen in AGES. so yes.

I will post the pics up soon..
I m off now...
toodles.

2006-10-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

Saturday... was a pampering DAY!

Haha.

I got a french manicure.. tryin out the new shop near my block.
And so i just tried the shop...
Its been a while since I pampered myself so yes....
feelin rich too. So i got it anyways. First I thought I looked like i had jaundice . But it turned out rather fine.
i like. I was runnin short of time so i dint get the full express mani&pedi.. my cuticles really need some caring!

Then I came back... supposed to study. But the weather was EXTREMELY hot. so i slept.
Yea I know. I pounce upon every opportunity to justify my lack of determination to study.
Then I got ready and left my house..

To see the two lovelies... k.k and vish.
They came to see me. sort of ah.
hahha. thankewwwwwwwww.... and they got me stuff which i dont know yet. so thats EXCITING!

And i met the boy...
I HAD to get heels.. coz I wasnt gonna to go to the birthday wearing my flats. And my wedges and heels dint suit my top.
So Another pair of shoes! hopefully i wear this pair more often.

I get shoes but i always end up wearing my good ole comfy flats that are so evident of wear-and-tear.

YES, i got an adidas jacket from the boy! which is really sweet.
he got it jus coz i was talkin to my brother abt it..
but then we went to Cathay Adidas to change
The service there is awesome really.
Smiley faces, more than willing to help..plus, they are cute!
and yes, the cashier even reprimanded me for tryin to peek at the price.. "It's a gift. He got it for you. Dont lar!"

And yes, i think it IS the biggest Adidas outlet. With literally everythin.
So GO there.

And it seems they helped him alot with the selection when he went. so yes.

And we had to go get Champagne for the birthday boy...

And we got there and he was evidently happy with all the arrangements his cousins did for him.
very sweet really.
such cohesive family bonds.
God, they were so 'ON'.

and yes. good food.

And yes, i came back and Husky was home!
surprisingly quiet. came to my room and followed me in.. jumped on my bed. sniffed my pillow.and gave a nasty snarl. cheh.
Such a cute thing he is.

Rite. So it was a good day.
Minus the annoyin fakesters. And huge gossip mongers. Who are jus waiting to see one of us even flinch.
Cheh. MYOB mofos.
And really, i am not puttin a GUN to your ass askin u to say hi to me.
You dont want to , dont bother lar.

Ta-da. And sunday is a LOUSY day. Husky was jus walkin around sadly..
Hes more familiar with me so yes...
and i dont jump as much when he licks.

And rite now, of course I m supposed to be chanting the various nationalist movements in SEA and recite how the Japs invaded their pudgy ass into SEA and how Europe was so selfish and jus HAD to repossess SEA yet again.
And of course the struggle within SEA to create their own political governments .

Eh SERIOUSLY, i dont care lar.

I want food, shopping and B&Js.

But studyin is a mighty good excuse to escape dreadful household chores.

Oh wells.

This post jus ended up sounding so Bimbotic.
But really.
I DONT care. :)

Peace out niggas.

2006-10-03T12:21:00.000+08:00

Snap!

HAha.

Okay, this is pretty much another pet peeve. But i will make it short. Sorry lar. I am not actually hot-tempered. I jus have low tolerance for stupid people.
SO there.

Okay, you see, after you finish an exam, it is OVER. K.O.
Dont freaking have your discussions and ask me whether i put a dot over the i, or write elasticity with a capital E.
I m not one of your kind.
And see, in secondary school , honestly, I have discussed the general feel of the paper.
Fuckin Tough, What the HOLY heavens was she thinkin when she set this, Scratch the fella's car! Were some expressions we used. To urm, express our deep feelings.
Maximum discussion time: 10 mins.
That's it. Then we move on.
Next paper.
We dont pathetically grapple with the questions and answers.

Here its just worst. Comments comments. Jus move your ARSE quickly, take your bag and ciao..
IF your mouth is crazily itching,talk to ur friend abt it. Not to the whole corridor.
And really, you can say its assurance or just boosting up your confidence, but really, certain people just doin it for me to say, 'Please lar, you confirm A'
And you see, if u know Shini well, the more you want her to say it, the more she WONT.
So dont fuckin piss her off. And SHUT up.
Dont drag me into your discussions.
I not interested.
So if u realise, i simply take my bag, and walk down to get myself a hotdog bread with chilli,mayo&mustard.
Fattening but who cares.

I recall an incident in my secondary school days(act old abit lar), it was prelims i think.
A certain CLASS, after the geography paper , like the majority of the class sat at the bench and went through their MCQ questions together.
Tell you, my appetite was spoilt.

Pahh.

Speaking about appetite,on saturday, i was cravin for kangkong... and Yes i got it!
My parents brought me to this place in sembawang.
And i had such yummalicious delightful food.

I had hot plate tahu, chilli kangkong with the sambal belachan cooked sooo right!, spicy prawns with the coconut meat. this is some speciality they had, its tiger prawns,not the very huge ones, in this gravy which is hot&spicy with a slightly sourish/tangy taste topped with fresh white coconut meat.
Wipe your drool. Its on your keyboard.
And yes, the pepper crab was just WA-LA!
It was peppery and thick gravy.. Some stalls serve it too sweet, too spicy, too peppery. This was jus HEAVENLY.

Enjoy.
You see I am not gonna tell you the place. U wanna know, u ask me, then u bring me & go.
Hah!

Yes,to those who want to know.
All i m gonna tell you abt the promos is that it ends on October 9 2006.
Book me fast.
I m busy.
SO far, the people i cant wait and absolutely HAVE to meet!
Just to remind u guys ah:

Pravind
Snow White
Boobass
Ash
Natz
IDA
Poo

cant wait!
I need retail therapy.

2006-09-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

pet peeves continued.
red was too strong a colour for that post , dont u think?

i m not angsty or shit. jus annoyed.

yes. how is it that every tuesdays, when i wait for either 107 or 153, all the buses that ever come are 147 and 100 . And nope, they dont jus come one by one, they come two or three buses in a row. of the same number. meaning at one go, there could be 3 147 buses at the stop. yes. and another 2 100 buses entailing not too far behind.
i probably wait like 20 mins for jus ONE 107.
and yes, this pattern repeats every single week. when i go down to the Tent.

When I watch tv, the same freakin programmes repeat themselves over and over again. There was a day i saw Aguilera's 'Aint No other Man' video three times in a day.
Hi Ho Hello?! What happened to Fergie's London Bridge? or sexy back?
Of course , dont have to talk abt Channel 5. Idiots show the same blardy 'Behind The Movie Making over and over again.
chrrr..

Okayyyy. AS i was doin this, A guy just called me. There was a missed call from this number.
So he goes " Hi ma'm, callin from some agency. And remember u fill up coupons and blah blah at blah blah . '
so i m like yea maybe. (in my head: when da fuck?!)
Then he says oh we have shortlisted or selected 20 people.. and u can come down to receive ur gifts... And says, u dont have to worry, u do NOT have to purchase anythin . Neither will there be any sales. or stuff like that. So its pure collection.
I m like. U are sure ahhh
He is yea i am. Ur prizes are a 150 dollar worth stainless steel watch, 160 dollar voucher to do spa,body massage, and 4day3night free accomodation to China ( of all places)
By this time i m excited rite.. but still abit suspicious.
Then he says, come down and collect at Delphi Orchard this afternoon can?
I m like huh.. okay... should be able to.
He says jus to check ah. what are you workin as?
I m like, no lar. I studyin
He says, 'Just to confirm. You are Miss Chang rite. C-H-A-N-G?"
'NO?!'
'Okay sorry. Bye.'

DONO HOW TO ASK THE LAST QUESTION FIRST IS IT.
KNNBCCB.

I hungry already. thanks to jesmine and her stingray and kangkong! i want i want!
grrr.
at 12 pm, no one sells that.
So alternatives.
Ciaoz.

2006-09-28T10:31:00.000+08:00

Hi Ho!

I have been wanting to blog this for long. SO here goes.

My pet peeves. Things that i strongly dislike.

1. More annoyin and irritatin than those who dont give up their seats are THOSE WHO DONT ACCEPT THE SEATS THAT HAVE been given UP!
obviously, u look like u are pregnant or like an old person who needs some seating. so jus SHUT UP, be courteous and accept the goddamn fuckin seat.
I dint get my warm ass up the seat to let it cool okay?
And I dont need recognition. Just dont give me your haughty look when i give up my seat.

Teachers who think its very funny when they say
hint 1: study everythin . hint 2: dont bother leavin out anythin to study.
HELLO? u think very funny arh? Hilarious joker is it?
Cmon , we dint beg you for hints in the first place. Then u ATTEMPT to crack jokes.
This was initially a triviality, but hey, not when it is repeated. and repeated. ANd repeated.

Okay, so we know there are very famous people. With media, people receive instant fame and recognition. What have you the whole kaboosh of internet devices, friendster , msn, blogs, yes, we all know there are certain people who stand out amongst the rest .
Whats this whole thing abt tryin to catch people's eyes. And looking around .
U say U are famous and people talk about you and look at you all the time. Cmon lar, u look around for people tryin to pick one or two souls whose glances happened to come ur way...
Pathetic . Shows ur insecurities in abundant amounts.
Yes, we ALL have our insecurities. But those who rant and rave that they are the greatest shouldnt be pardoned.
Since they feel their insecurities are non-existent.

Yes, And i can see from the corner of my eye and if u are infront of me , i can observe this. So dont try to lash back at me, sayin that i was lookin at you in the first place.
Examine your conscience , And shut up.

Alrite.
I shall depart for a while. Will be back.
Education beckons me .

2006-09-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

hes high already lar.

it was a blues and oranges day.

mocha browns.

2006-09-16T12:06:00.000+08:00

The Art Of Compromise.

Has been 4 days since My computers been down. Using my brudda's laptop.
Just when i thought it would be good to do a photo entry.

Argh.
Anyway. I am extremely scared cos the computer might have to be reformatted. And videos, pictures OLD & NEW , school folder, every single effin thing would be gone with the wind.
So yes, i have been praying.
And yes, I was the silliest fool not to have created backup files.

I used to look forward to the weekends. But nowadays, the weekends have too many things jam packed I am beginning to dread them.
Example, in a day, I might have to meet three different people.

Okay, i should stop acting busy.
LOLS.

I WANT WANT :

beach
swimming
tequila slamma
bacardi
jeans
skirt
pointedz
flats
bag
sleep
sambal stingray
famous amos
Lanvin perfume
chaos top
phone!
fresh strawberries,peaches&cherries
foot massage
that eyeshadow
topshoppin
vodka peach
ikea'ing'
arab street'ing'
bling
that open toed shoe
vikram movie

When our affection seems wounded, more often, it is only our vanity bleeding.

2006-09-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

hi ho happy hellO!

firstly, i have been an absolute crackhead and not been a very good friend.. I apologise for forgettin so many birthdays. I used to be good at all these keepin dates. But crap, I seriously am really very sorry. No, I am NOT gonna come up with excuses. But yes, please forgive me.

Ah Neh- Shankar.. see u in such urm, contradictory places. and the last meeting was yet the best, given that you spoke to me the most. haha the whole sister thing, i like.
Happy happy birthday. And i know you will probably never forgive me for this.

Khomala- I dono if you still read my blog. But yes, VERY sorry, it jus really slipped my mind. I remember last year.. time flies really fast and yes, i hope you are doing good!

Vani akka- 0.01% chance that you read my blog. EXTREMELY sorry. crap.

daymn. I hate forgetting birthdays! busy schedules and all that are jus not excusabke. Grr. OKAY.

Happy September 11 to all. Yes, while the US was commemorating their tragic losses and the HUGE firestarter for the outbreak of terrorism, I was celebrating L.O.V.E.

Yes I had a wonderful wonderful day and as usual, I wont dwell into details so as to not let anyone cast their evil eyes..

With a very apt movie about love, and then briyani sharings and Ben&Jerrys and sleepin in the rain..ah.
Enjoyed every single minute.

Food and its therapuetic abilities. :)

Yes. So the weekend went fine. Actually it was a pretty much family weekend.

Gawd, I really regret to note that all my entries are getting narrative in nature.

But yes , a point to note. DAMN. I feel like my nieces and nephews are growing up so freaking fast. And i think they are getting scared of me.. !?

They walk past me with that side look at the eyes, hoping that I would not catch their glance...Grr. Cmon!
I am such a power packed aunty. Scared of me all. Gr. Saturday was an upsettin event.
But, I have to mention.

I was colouring with 4 kids and boy, they were so ANAL about details.
'Dont colour out of the face.'
'Eee, why the dress purple colour?'
'Why she got so many different colours in her dress?'
'Can you please colour the hair brown?'
EH freaking HELL, hair for princess all black lar. U think u angmoh kids ahhh.. Blonde, brown all.
See whats happening to kids nowadays. Their mental development is becoming so structural. So technical.
Tsk.

Yea. And then it was my weekly dosage of Ms Vasantham.
A very ENTERTAINING show indeed.

Just one freaking question though.
People ask you which world celebrity you wanna meet and you say 'George Bush.'
Fair enough. Politically correct & current answer.
Why? 'Cause he's cute' ?!
mother fucken heavens holy god!
and you manage to squeeze in a little giggle in the hope of making you seem like the 'oh-so-bubbly' girl?!

Even a 5 year old can manage a better answer.

Damn. I have to admit, fairly good job at the make-up part.
Some of the girls really look WAY BETTER.
but, cmon lar, INTELLIGENCE bit. WORK ON IT LAR.
Stupidity difficult to tackle. TRY LAR.

and please, NERVES are not a justifiable reason for such (fill in appropriate word yourself) answers.

gawd.

enough ranting.

I have three more weeks. Till the determining exams. Determining whether I spend another year or 2 years singing Non Mihi Solum.

So please, all of you...goin to churches, and temples. Please .Spare me a thought.
Just pray for me ah. wont die rite. squeeze me in abit in ur prayers.
I kid I kid.

So I take my leave my fellow Web-connected friends.
Till the next time, adieu.

Fucken wacky mood. :)
Bliss does this to me.

You are this pure addiction. I want. I need.

2006-09-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

My my ... what a saturday night it was.
As usual, I wont dwell into details.
All I can say is, I saw ALOT of people.. and yes...

Fair fun.

And after that, breakfast and the morning was jus a whole rollercoaster of events... Emotions from high to low.. and yes, I can tell you now that I am a very happy girl.

Sometimes, somethings have to be just talked out.

I felt awkward at certain points...
But music beckons you. And all you gotta do is scream the awkwardness and sing off the fuck'adupness' .

I am human and I have feelings.

And yes, another time , yet again, the Nation calls one of them... the evolution of boys to men..
Pahh.
Shaun Delano. I cant wait to see you bald!

And yes, so i have survived one week. The week of events after events after events. Tiring. But ultimately survived.

I watched the V-square movie .. with awesome company. To laugh at the zaniest things.
I swear we were laughing at the blardy psychotic movie..
from kamal's belly as the cause of his slow and stylish walk in the beginning to their talk, 'okay lar' and 'paining' .
i swear.
i can comment variously on the movie.. but yes, what perturbs me especially till now, most importantly, is how they make murder seem.
Yes, with the whole western media influence , they make it seem as though killings is as easy as making 'apan jalras'. (the yellow brothers of dosai)

But yea, hilarious videos of blacks dancin along to indian tunes and mouthin the lyrics.
Yea, truly , the movie served its purpose.. ENTERTAINMENT.
to explore the netting behind the plot , characterisation and all that, i lazy.
watch for urself.

The SO CALLED holidays begin. Paaah.
Two days are gonna be gone jus like tat. I have pre-expedition camp .
I wanted to catch up with friends... Ida, Snow White, Leen, Kutty, Ash, Paulo
Grrrr.
sickening.
we'll see how it goes.

and yes, hema akka's engagement. before that, baby shower. which was a hilarious show i tell you. with the host repeated calls for my bro, velma and vero...
hahaha.
and the dancin and the teasing.
and yes, the baby is awesomely cute.
Cried and slept to nalla sarakku in my hands... i know.
I am tryin to restrain the motherhood instincts.

hema akka's engagement was ...interesting.
with ruby's aunts commentin variously on my hair.
and how sivangi was upset that i cut it.
yes, a 6 year old.
nan and her stories.

So yes, tiring but very fruitful events...

to you. feels like months.
ups and downs. high and lows.
goin thru them is so tough, yet its all worth it.
Painful Pleasures.
the rollercoaster ride.
hold my hand tight, we'll get thru this.

2006-08-26T10:58:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Kutty!
Yes i was literally fallin asleep. set alarm .. and yea, who da hell is sunita?
haha..

YES I made it thru the interview. Very gladly, with the bestest companion I could ask for.
But some are very upset.
I m sorry darlings. But hey, cut me some slack too lar. I am not goin for a megastar holiday?
I M GONNA MISS EVERY SINGLE THING i m addicted to.
imagine 3 weeks imaginin that there is NO POSSIBLE way to taste Ben&Jerrys...The closest I can get is naming the rats Jerry probably.

The online temptations.. How I am gonna resist blog surfin(Kaypoh mah) and arranging my pictures, the songs.... and talk to the MSN buddies, who oh well,only talk to you in MSN.
The phone... The smses which I get from my armyboyssssssssss, the TAB, the gurlfriends...

My weekly foursome dosage... this is probably one which i m seriously GONNA MISS!
my pooh.
my brother making fun of my mother, my mother beggin me to switch on the SCV for her coz she doesnt know how to do it, my dad's kisses every morning and night, the whole four of us and our seafood dinners.

THE FOOD. as you all know, I am a PIG. I need chinese food. All my coffeeshop aunties & uncles ..
What if they forget what I usually buy from them in 3 weeks?
From My beloved 848 coffeeshop.
Ban Mian, Zha Jiang Mian, Yong Tau Foo dry Beehoon, Sliced Fish Soup, Stingray, Frog Leg,Ducksoup, PorkRibs Soup, 925 Hot plate, PASTAmania,the BuddyHoagies Minnestrone Soup,
Bedok Rams Nasi Sambal Belachan With the lovely prawns.
Syrup Limau...
Tequila Slamma, Margarita Spritz...(the pathetic T.G.I.F drinks)

the weekends, the ass-cannot-stay-at-home-on-saturdays....
TV. not so much of a television junkie but yes, my 'rents are gettin a 42 inch tv. and i got a new sofa which I spent 2 nights on..using the excuse that my fan was spoilt.
SO when actually the time is MOST optimum for me to jus BUM around and not feel guilty...
I spend my days at a rural area. with totally zilch technology.

Most importantly, my father.
I can call myself pretty much independent..
But hey, I have really come to realise how dependent I am on my father.
Not speakin in terms of finance shit.
How i get very irritated at him for ALWAYS talkin to me in the mornings but when he doesnt I feel weird...
and how he will take my already ironed shirt and iron it.
How i will grumble that i DONT WANT breakfast which will let him launch into a lecture of how breakfast is impt and he will make a slice of bread silently before he leaves.
Of how he will ensure that I have eaten and will ask me the SAME QUESTION every 2 hours.
And all his standard messages "Food"... "Ok".
How we will make fun of my mother and her friends.....
How he will put his arm over my shoulder and walk to EAT.
How he will enquire about my friends.. and mispronounce all their names.

Yes I m gonna miss you one helluva lots Dad.
3 weeks is one HELLUVA long time.

Yes, but hey, I am stepping out of my comfort zone. And puttin myself to this challenge.
And I m not gonna complain coz the bestest companion I could have is following me.
ANd together, we are gonna pull thru this and make this experience OURS.
My kuluvalileh woman.

What an apt song... Coldplay-The Scientist. Playin on my iTunes shuffle mode.

And so i apologise to these two very important people who I have upsetted by this decision.
Vish.
Pooh.
Sorry.

Before I forget, I was contemplating to shut down the blog...
Too many misinterpretations and yes....
too many blogs around with the same kaboosh.
And I am not gonna forsake my intergrity or make this a whole angsty blog throwin insults jus to make this stand out.
So yes, thinking......

2006-08-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

Rite.

I am supposed to be doin the bitch of school work. But yes, online temptations.

Yes, as some of my dear friends have realised, I have come to a point where I enjoy hearing stuff said about me. Bad stuff. Yes, and from people who probably have no clue where I am studyin, or what is seriously the real spelling of my full name.
Sinc e them secondary school days till now, friend's brother who just had a mere glance of me, friend's auntie, tom, dickhead and hairy.

Yes.
So yesterday was another interesting day.
I have been termed the 'Betrayer'.

Yes, have I in keling terms, backstabbed anyone of late? I wonder.
The reason why I have been termed as such : It is because I ignored someone's long liking for me and went on to be in a relationship.

Let me tell you this. To you or your dear FRIENDS who seriously should learn to get a life and stop harrassing girlfriends.

I have my reasons for doing things.
I KNOW that going into a relationship out of pity,sympathy is FOOLISH. It's silly. And liking a person just because that person likes you is not going to make the relationship any better.
If I am gonna have these reasons for getting into a relationship with you, lemme tell you straight POINT BLANK= the relationship will not last.
And really, I would rather save us both the pain NOW then later.

I am not denying any fact that you are a gem of a guy. That solely is NOT sufficient to bring any relationship far. and i KNOW that.
I know you think of everyone before yourself. And you will give me my way if we ever had a relationship. That alone is NOT going to bring us both anywhere.
I know you have been there at times . That is why I gave our friendship significant importance and did not shy u away.

I am not justifying myself.
I am just telling all of you I HAVE MY REASONS for doing what i do.
And I seriously find no need to explain this to anybody.
Especially to your friends who cant keep their hands still and can ruthlessly treat a girl.

I am the only one who knows HOW my mind works.

I am not sayin I am perfect, coz BULLSHIT to perfection .
If I make mistakes, I want it to be MY mistakes.
Then only will I learn.
I am not saying the relationship I am having now is perfect,flawless and will stretch beyond all deep blue seas and freakin high skies.

I chose this decision and I will live by it, through the repurcussions.

There are people who have been in relationship for eons, 6yrs, 3yrs blah blah. I have heard MANY experiences. And i have come to realise.
Quantity is just a surface gauge of the relationship. So many stay on in the relationship despite shit and lack of feelings just for the sake of not losing face and for the time period; all in the end to entangle themselves in more problems.

I will live by the moment and whatever memories I have with him, I will keep it close.
Obviously we all love the word 'forever' but what holds for us in the future, I dont know.
This is a decision I took . And yes, only I have the RIGHT to question it.

On a rather random note,
Suhaidah wants me to talk about her in my blog. Shameless lar my friends.TSK.
So I sent off Naga last Friday, bought her a rose, to find out she cant bring flowers.
Yes My dear chindian friend, I am gonna miss you.
I had a very fun 2 years because of these two lasses.
I will never forget our dance practices in the toilet and our umpteen kachowings with Suhaidah. (Boobass)
And all our bitching moments. And yes, I hope you both get what you really want in lives. 'Cause you girls deserve it.

This weekend is gonna be so hectic.
I have a dance performance, a birthday invitation to partay (which I am considering), and a naming ceremony for a baby boy!
I want to wear my satin heels and I have to buy some make-up. BobbiBrown & Red Earth.
Am deciding to go temple or shopping on Friday night as I have considerably quite a few things to get.
Slippers for dad, (yes we both slipped on our way back from breakfast on Sunday and laughed at each other) , Kutty's present, chain for me :) .

Oh yes, I just got my Ben&Jerrys. Chocolate Brownie.
God, if they could come up with such orgasmic concotions, imagine them in bed.
Hah.

Tomorrow is my interview. I know while some people are praying that I dont get the overseas CIP project, I am prayin that I do.
Its 20 days and boy its gonna be one helluva test of my endurance to stay away from home.
Yeap 20 days in Thailand to teach Kids english.
If I get it , I will dish out more details.

I am going to start my service at the Tent soon too.

So its gonna be a wild wild time.
But it doesnt give you the concession to just assume that I am busy and not ask me out.
*Stares at Paulo.

2006-08-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

I still cant believe I used to look like that.
Or have that kind of hair at least.
It looks so soft.
DAMN.

2006-08-10T14:09:00.000+08:00

random post. photos speak the best.. so this is what i have been up to .
lovin and more lovin :)
no chronological order.

me&bf.... @ the new newton which i hate!i want old newton back! i look sleepy. and yesh i simply love the crown & da bf! happy birthday u mickey!

the ya-ya girls in my life. gorgeous,always worryin me, yet i love them too much lar!

the HAGGARD look is 'IN' . vithya is missing.

my pretty girls. i love.
and yes that is THE FINGER.

still a pretty pic despite the cameraman's shaky hands. *grumbles.
da drama day...
outside inside eh.

yes. such a 'feeling' picture. and her shoulder has ALWAYS been there for me to lie on.
and i thankew .

coffeebean! i like. relivin the secondaryschool moments.
laughter. smiles. i m gonna miss u lar BITCH!

kids chocolate ice blended. and swedish berry tea.
YUM lar!

yuzhe,cherrie and joleen at ma house.
yes yuzhe is wearin my bro's jippa.
haha THE project work team.
project LAUGHTER more like it.
:)
yesh yuzhe IS wearin my brother's jippa.

our hilarious video takin skills.
need any skilled video makers, DONT CALL Us.

the pretty PRETTY stainless steel box. and i love it more coz its from you!
the pleasant'est' surprise.

2006-08-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

Currents
Current Mood: hungry!!!!
Current Taste: nothin? i havent had anythin since ydae. so Zam Zam chicken briyani.
Clothes: elmo shirt & shoRts.
Current Desktop: a baby's pic - Black and White one.
Current Toenail Colour: i dint put any colour.
Curent Time: 2.53
Current Surroundings: hall. dad and bro walkin ard.
Current Annoyances: the freakin hot weather. and how i m gonna finish my schoolwork?
Current Thoughts: i WANT FOOD! should i eat the ben&jerrys for now?

Firsts
First Best Friends: LeeShuQi & PehShiYun. Yea i got awesome memory. we used to call ourselves the 'S' sisters. wahaha.
First Crush: i would rather not say the name. LCK. a manjan boy. from kindergarten too.
First Movie: i really cant rmb. but nayagan?or muthu? ransom was the first movie i went theater to watch.
First Lie: Oh sorry. I dont lie. Never have ah.
First Music: Dad singin song in the mornings to wake me up.

Lasts
Last Cigarette: haha. Yesterday. From a passive smoker's point of view.
Last Drink: HL milk. ydae nite.
Last Car Ride: now that my dad NEVER sends me to school, i rarely see the CAR!!
Last Crush: the actor siva.yesterday. wahaha. FINE . mugam.
Last Movie: RAtchagan. On SUNtv.
Last Phone Call: mugam.
Last CD played: i dont have cds all .
Last song played: Tito.Flow natural .

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend:no.
Have you ever broken the law: haha. CHEH .. EH wa lau. sickening. Of course not. CAnt u see, i am a perfect Law-abiding citizen?
Have you ever been arrested: i wont say anythin cheesy. NO.
Have you ever skinny-dipped: No.
Have you ever been on TV: yesh. Sorkalam Speaker From Floor. and some sickening Fathers day wishes. All in Cedar uniform.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: kiss?! huh?! what that.

Things
5 things you are wearing: actually nothin. I mean nothin accessory or wat.. Jus them clothes.
4 things you did today: Sleep. Wakeup.Sleep. This survey.
3 things you can hear right now: the malay gompang. Theres a wedding and all i can think abt is the FOOD!
2 things u want to do: EAT ! WORK! SHOP! MINE!
1 thing u do when you're bored: Eat. Sleep. Shop.
yea i noe. slight cock-up with the numbers.

2006-08-04T14:03:00.000+08:00

There has been a recent bout of tagging incidents which has caused much excitement.

Blog 1:
Really surprised me. So much angst. So much issues. And so much conflicts. And really, it is evident from his blog that he is seriously dealing with the conflict WITHIN himself. not really with me or joanne, with my GP teacher or whoever in the class.
but REALLY , WITH himself. He faults others for making judgements. Or at least he faults others based on his ASSUMPTIONS of the judgements.
Statements u make, actually have very childish tones to them under the mature language u attempt to use.
My my, its just sad that you dismissed all of the neutral comments we tried to give and even think they are attacking you and your character, and yes ur 'invincible' clique.

Blog 2:
Vish my bf.
Really, the controversy over this one just awakened me to another point of how people LOVE this whole interference into others' relationships.
Yes, i have recently been such a victim of such nosy interference. And irrelevant comments.
Statements that dont hold water, perceptions loosely based on physique and face that are merely stated to destroy or shaken an innocent relationship.
If that person truly means somethin to you, you wouldnt create such hoohaa drama.
yes , Jealousy is an inevitable emotion. But such evil & childish ways to portray that jealousy?

We are ALL old enough to differentiate between genuine concern and pure evil.

Vish, take a chill pill. Sit down and enjoy the show.BUT dont ever EVER stoop to their level and hit them with similar lowly comments.

All I can say is , blog without regretting. It is after all, YOUR own freedom of speech. But to take advantage of this freedom with no sense of responsibility, doesnt mean that we are questioning and faulting ypur liberties. it jus means YOU are just SENSELESS.

Yes,if u seen me recently, you wouldnt miss this whole Panda-Eye look i m goin for.
Yes i have horrible eye bags, and i look lethargic. SO, this is jus a forewarning.
Yes i WANT SLEEP!
grr... but yea, I cant complain. :)

ALot of mental stress. Of my priorities. And how time management is gonna come in.
Dealing with alot of issues. Like how I am goin to overcome this phase with all the various OTHER activities, i wouldnt say distractions... And where I am goin after this phase, and the immense competition that I will face and yes, facing.
Yes, i have made sure that my decisions are MINE. So that I will live to live the consequences.

I am dealing with it alot. Yes, but it IS better that i do. I need this stress and pressure from myself cos seriously, it IS my own stress and pressure that i give myself which pushes me to achieve what I have achieved and given others the opportunity to achieve.
It is this very stress created that has taught me how to deal with it later and how to identify those that I need and should bother to keep in my life.
Much of this stress can only be elevated by myself alone. Thats why very few people know the real reasons for my stress .
To the darlings who have been ABSOLUTE darlings during these phases, thank you.
Its this very few people that will have my back when i am down for sure.
Not those who only want a share of my happiness when its all over.
Take the fame . Take it all you want.
Cos seriously, I have come to a point where my personal satisfaction means the most to me.
And that is what keeps me goin time after time , problem after problem.

I went back to Cedar .
And honestly, when I was 13 , I never would have imagined I would say this very words.
Cedar Girls Secondary has truly given me the optimum situations for me to mould myself and my character. And half of what I am today,especially in the part of leadership roles , discovery of my own academic abilities, relations with different sorts of people and dealing with ALL SORTS of people (mostly, fucked up ones) is due to Cedar and what it has offered me.

I miss that school and all the memories, and when I say it, i truly feel it. Its like a loss. But it IS a phase that i will never choose to erase.
TO ALL my friends from Cedar, it was an awesome and rollercoaster ride of 4 years.
I truly cant be bothered with the fuckheads who couldnt wait to get out of the school and think I am being over-emotional. Cos really, for a person who HATED cedar for 2 blardy years, i think i have much to say.

I have bored the brunt of unpleasant teachers and unfair treatment in school.
But just for that, i would never sillyly want to take back all the moments I had and all the friends i made.

I apologise really, for the lengthy post. I have not blogged for long.. And nothing particularly controversial has happened in my life.
I am not complainin though cause theres this bunch of people I love and absolutely have a ball of time with doing nothing.

2006-07-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

yes yes.

so i have been missing. like i was missed.
hahaha.

trust me, i do have issues at times and points whereby i really think 'Okay, gotta blog this man!'
and nope it doesnt happen.

and i try, not to do too many angsty issues.

Yes, last week was a very tryin week.
I never knew it was that tough to smile.
Put up a tough fight.
Come home, put up another tough front.
And yes, so i continued this cycle..
and will continue it.

God is my best friend. And with my faith in him, i m sure HE will pull me through this.

Rite.
School is gettin better.
My breaks are sometimes spent with solid hours of bitchfests.
The manjan bitch fest.
I m the only indian in my class. But yes, my class is full of very interesting and different people.
Yuzhe, Joleen,Jiawen,Joanne and Cherrie!
My absolute bitchfest partners!
lols..

and yes i will perservere on.
And yes, to my dearest ones having a few bumpy rides in their relationships, hang in there guys.
July-September..
Not very good months eh.

Random.

My pooh.
Boy, you take me on this emotional rollercoaster. And i love-hate it.

2006-07-08T11:59:00.000+08:00

u make me a very happy 7-year old.
u give me Ben&Jerrys and watch me smile...
u listen to me whine and bitch...
u wish on stars with me..
theres too many things u do.
and i have many beautiful memories with you...........

2006-07-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

I adore babies. i simply cant see how some people can find the whole concept of young kids detestable.
yea there are annoying kids and all.. but hey... its the same whole boosh abt their innocence and their purity of intentions.
kids are gettin extremely smart and vocal nowadays ..its good to see them speak up in their language for what they want and believe in.
even at that young tender age.
and yes of course, its even more entertaining and sometimes, a little disappointing, to see how the whole kaboosh media influence has impacted their growth..

anyway after that extremely tight post previously, here are some lovely pictures.
i really love them.. and yes, you might have some personal favourites.
dont hesitate to save them in your computer..
these pictures have this astounding ability to cheer u up. ( i speak from experience) so enjai. if u want, u can ask me .. i can send you the email too.

2006-06-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

ok yes.. been a whole week no?

rite.. so i jus got over the bitch of exams. holy god. maths was fucken tough. i wonder.. i always put myself through this whole trauma.
anyway u guys know how much i hate talkin abt them academics.so i will leave with whatever results i get.. cause what i sow, i reap...

VIEWER DISCRETION: In a bitchy mood.
And yea, other than that... i m jus hungry and i strongly desire retail therapy . tsk.
soon soon.

A small note : You see , my momma taught me some FINE manners. so seriously , when i come up to you and i say hi , or i smile at you, fuckin respect that , and seriously, dont bother , i insist, DONT BOTHER givin me your fuckin half past 7 smiles.
And yes, sometimes, i do know, we all get a lil surprised and taken aback , or dont notice when the other person is wavin or acknowledgin , hence the slightly fucked chicken reaction. Damn i am guilty of it too.
But hey, i am not a fuckin idiot.. when i BOTHER and take the effort (trust me ,i could have saved on the energy walkin and speakin) , u RECIPROCATE.
keep your fuckin bitchyness to someone else.

dont give me your whole i-am-4/5-years older than you...and shit stuff like that. cause seriously, fuck you.

Another note, i and my mugam were talkin....actually i was tellin him how lasses and guys like 3 or 4 years older than me, like to give me this whole shit of mockin my young age.. seriously, i have old friends and yea, i do get the mockin thing alot. BUT i know WHEN it gets overboard.
and usually, these people often 3 or 4 years older are the ones who cross the limits.
see i have friends and cousins who are way older than you...
and really, i RESPECT people who respect me back.
Just because i sing trashy songs and know how to fuckin enjoy myself , doesnt mean im immature.
dont give me your fuckin dialogues. I m NOT interested.

i have friends who are like way older, and TRULY, yes there are instances when they bring in the age.. and i cant blame them coz i m a kid in heart and i m sorry, i cant suppress that jus coz u wanna act like u macam cool MS BEYONCE MARIMUTHU or MR TUPAC PANDIYAN.
but they dont go overboard. its a joke and its over. there and then. and they impart advice and knowledge with the mere purpose of helping me to learn. not to flaunt their manliness/feminist sides.

those a copla ages older talk abt their experiences with alcohol,men/ladies, sex and all that...yes i appreciate advice.
but seriously, i know good advice when i hear it.
Dont give me your trashy arrogant talk.
i m losin patience...
and i have already lost my respect for certain people.

Coz really, its not how many experiences u fuckin had that defines your maturity level, its how you take the learnin point from your experience sor other people's and mould the learning lesson into a value inculcation.
You could have the BALL OF experiences , going to jail, banging some wild ones, cheated on your man/lady ..but really, if you keep doin the same shit and GO around talkin like u own the world, i m supposed to call you what, mature is it?

Go FLY big ORANGE kite at sembawang BEACH.

2006-06-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

Rite.. so i havent given any thought provoking posts in AGES.

and i havent bitched and ranted in a while.

all i have been doing is posting pictures..coz seriously, i have been havin some fun with the pics anyways.

Rite, so i was blog surfing abit... i jus read a copla blogs...
And i jus wonder, how much some females RANT and RANT and RANT and RANT some more!
of how people misjudge them or have cocked up perceptions of them, and all the fuck bullshit crap of such.... and then they go on sayin 'know what, i dont care..blah blah' and they spend another 3/4 paragraphs elaborating why they shouldnt care, and who are they to say any shit.
seriously, i just have one question.
IF u SERIOUSLY dont care, why bother ranting and bitching like that?
and u do it SO OFTEN too. sheesh....its actually GETTIN boring? and the very fact that you give them that considerable amount of space,effort with word play and all that show that u PRECISELY CARE.
the same vulgarities used, u describe different actions , use slightly different verbs, but we all know what u mean.
TSK.

Anyhow, whatsup with MS ( i know its a MISS) Anoymous who goes to my friend's brother and talks abt a picture i post up? in friendster that is..
sayin that there is a pic of us with alcohol?!
get your facts right .. and whoever you are, bugger off lar.

Yea , i know myself, i take much caution with pics and the net...
sorry i m not as liberal yet .. dont think i can come to that stage either. of stating names of EVERYONE i know/date and what i did explicitly and all that boosh..
i dont stupidly jepoardise my friends and neither should u.
but really, THANKS for the concern.

Ah, so, i flipped through my homework.
General Paper being one of my absolute favourites...
And the question stared right back in me...

'Preoccupation with the past is merely an escape from the present. True?'
And i sat and thought about it..
and thought and thought.
Yes, i know, i am fairly young, and i havent 'tasted life yet'..
but i think alot... especially about my past relationships and friendships i had with people...
those that even lasted for weeks...
and i do get moments when i suddenly remember them..

i think abt the people of my past ALOT...
and human nature, or shini nature, i tend to compare certain aspects of relationships i have had to those that i have right now...

And yes, there are times when i miss it all and wish it could just come back.. and be the way it was ..

But shit happens. And we have to fall to learn.

So yeap. AT times, i admire people who can totally erase certain parts from their lives and really NOT remember anythin associated with it..
But then again, its these parts that will prevent us from making the same mistakes again hah.

okay. all preachy.
shitsu.

Did i mention, i will just DIE without my weekly dosage of desperate housewives?
Bravo Lynette...shes so cunningly adorable.
The other characters have their high moments and all .. Pretty tops , good hair, luscious kissing scenes, furious clothes-tearing scenes...
but seriously, i think sometimes, people under estimate Lynette's character and what you think she is incapable of , she precisely will DO it. And thats what i seriously applaud.

I am becoming such a television junkie.. Its horrible what cable tv does...
it makes u feel good for sittin there and watching everything..
gives u the ultimate power for being able to control and switch your visual pleasures just by them fingers...
then when its all over, u get washed by this huge huge wave of guilt.. for not doing something even more constructive.

ah what the hell. I m jus becomin lazier.

An uber miscellaneous thought:
sometimes, some people SHOULD just get the hints i present them right in their FACES.

2006-06-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

unwell.
for 4 days, i was at home. and it was suffocating.
mom got so freaked out at my temperature..rushed me to the clinic and all...
doc was like 'wah full house ah u, fever,flu,cough,body pain.' to which i jus gave him a half smile.

i feel terribly drowsy... i sleep, wake up.. i have no appetite. everythin tastes like bland porridge.
but i still stuff the food down..coz i have to eat the med after food.
my head feels like a rock.
i barely could walk the first two days. not that i can run like road runner now.. but yea, i have much more energy.. and the joints hurt less.

damn i HATE feelin sick.

nithya has been a total babe.shes the one comin over with apple juice,bringin me down for fresh air, watchin tv with me. callin me...eating with me chocolate waffles..(yea even that tasted bland)
my freakin other half. i love u.

and yes, havin lost my phone, and bein sick...
makes u feel lonely.
it gets very very lonely...

its been a while since i got this sick...
and yes..what a time..durin the hols.

and yes, i m screwed too. havent studied.
and i feel terribly guilty that i havent been to the meetings . argh.

fuck the holidays.

i cant fuck them promos. i cant.

but it looks like i m gonna.

HELP.

2006-06-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

I LOST my phone.
so. yea.
but in a way its good.... its the SIEVING the contacts process.
Those who matter, and truly impt, will message.

okay..see what happens when u dont blog in a while...

SATURDAY : June 11

fuckin stupit day.
fuckin fuckin fuckin.
the thing is i was precisely in the RIGHT state of mind.
all that that happened happened because i was unwell..
blardy CRIMSON TIDE of the month.
argh .

but oh wells.
anyway. cant go back in a while...
jus ONE NUMBER made so much of difference.
lord! why why why!!!
eh anyway ah , if u dont know what i m talkin abt, dont go around makin your own fuckin assumptions.

thankew to those who helped, esp face.. who was there thruout the whole time... and tahaned my whininess...
and to flo... for being such an adorable lizard man.
and the ex-waiter.
and to my girls of course...
but haiks..........

why was i smilin so much
?!

pardon me for the little over the top usage of fuckin.
but seriously. what a fuckin day.

2006-06-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

oh yes i forgot to include somethin in the previous post.

june 2
happy birthday yoga.
yes i know i dint wish u in any form of manner and seriously i dont even know if u will read this even.
jus like u said ' i have my reasons', i have my reasons for doin things this way and yes, i hope u are doing good .coz u sure seem like u do.
i dint forget, neither am i one to.

and yes. SMUN 2006 . was an experience i seriously enjoyed and learnt so much from.
day 1: pretty much settling and tastin the horriblest food.
but i still ate it :) . tourin of Faculty of Arts & Social Sciences.
and yes ....the first committe sessions,introduction to the various countries...
settling into the hostel rooms, GASP! (realistation that it wasnt worth all that hype)
social nite : hmmm... funny dancing...
lols.. TECHNO DANCIN!? wahahhahahaa.. a little bit of salsa...
and yeaa.... generally overall a good day...
went back to the hostel room... and four of us cramped and talked cock...
til 2.. walked down to 7-11 .... checked out the prata shop..
walked krishna to the forum.. he was facilitating some camp at NUS....

day 2: we all pretty much knew it was gonnaa be a KILLING day coz we were scheduled to have 10 hours of debates and 2 hours of committee paperwork..
but yes.. the company was too bad.. so we dint literally die.. but rather, we enjoyed the bitching and the rather distinct formation of apparent allies and enemies....
wahaha.
n yes we survived it ! thhe night was jus relaxing.. and yup... we took another walk.. went to central library... sat down there at 1am...
seeing some students studyin there alone.. ( yes, their passion to attain education puts us all to shame eh)

me & vinod had cravings for prata... so off we went..once again to the prata shop .. the murtabak smelt funny, tasted spoilt.. so we gave it back...
and we chilled out somemore.. bought some snacks... retired back to hostel room.. and chilled...
took pics..

day 3: not so bad... but it was evident all of us had lost the drive to press our arguments...
even INDIA, the most aggressive, persuasive delegation, no longer continued stuffing their arguments down our throats....
so yes... but PAKISTAn (us) made significant contributions ...so did Saudi Arabia and Bangladesh...
Germany tried to mention some stuff.. but yea... nothin impressive.
yes.. and it was really evident that all of us were tired.... and jus wanted the whole blardy thing to finish...
coz it was jus the same people that kept goin up to the mike. and it was a unanimous vote for the draft resolution paper 1 so we finally jus ended the meeting!
and started taking pictures!
yay!

THEN.. came prize giving ceremony...
and all three committees came...
UNESCO, WHO, and UNCSD ...... (those of you who are simply effin clueless, hahaha. fear not lar..)
so they started givin out prizes for best postion paper, best speaker , best delegation and best honourable delegate....
for each committee..
then came UNESCO, and i was FUCKIN SHOCKED to hear PAKISTAN. coz seriously, me and my partner did not prepare half as much as USA or other countries did .. what with their research and late in the night discussion..
all we did was to maintain our dignity, not let the confidence overflow (like some countries i wouldnt mention) and jus rise to the occassion = make considerable points when u need..
dont jus rebutt whatever was being said rite?
and yes we won..
and i left NUS a very very very happy delegate.
and yes to the NUS undergraduates... i OWE u one ...
to the fello who was givin me cheeky smiles and tellin me cheese prata was pathetic, i should have told u this... u are one cute manjen.
and i learnt many many lessons.
one of the more important ones : arrogance is your tumbling step to failure.
others: dont trust hostel food and always have spare cash in ur underwear or somethin.
haha.

2006-06-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

ah i have many many things to say.

its been a good long period of time since i updated. yes yes i know. i have been busy. with external camps and what have you.

Firstly, AB camp.
yes, news spread fast. I left camp early.. and yes , my grandparents are far better now.
Grandmother has finally become less stubborn. and listening.. and makin lives a lil easier.

Friday: ( 2 June 2006)
P.P : Hope u enjoyed your birthday surprise.. like the cert says, u are my one and only TAB .
ash and jb, good seein you guys after such a long long time.
then it was good ole supporting transwave... and watchin a very VERY intriguing dance battle...
the two teams were like an inch away to punching each others' nose and tearing off what little clothes they had away.

Then it was 'lepaking' ..... which was more of a battle of male ego.. to see who could down more liqour and who could finish it and who could be more high. sheesh.
kids. ( and THEY called me young).
and yes loved the ambience at the place.

thankew surekha for the pic. do u realise, theres browns, beige, white and black in this pic. i lau.
and yes, representin what i love doin : retiring to my world of illusions.

simply being a fat ass slob. :)

Then came saturday which was an awesome night with my family of four. we simply did NOTHIN. we all sat on our cold floors (no, we havent gotten sofa yet) and chilled.. watched tamil movie and chilled.

sunday came and i had to meet them girls. and do stuff.
many many lovings.

monday was grandmothers day. again.
met snow white's grandmother again. exactly after a year too. and the guilt did diminish a bit . but stil feel bad.
i miss her food.

tuesday : school simply school.
and yes, PP, a patient shoppin companion whos FINALLY havin SOME opinions ...wahaha.
was in such a fix.. to get dad stuff. geez, its SOOOO tough gettin my father present and plannin him a surprise.
but eventually i did

wednesday : (7June )
HAPPY BIRTHDAY my old man!!! woke up at 5, collected the breakfast delivery i made.. set it all up... made the table... got ready the party hats...

and he loved it!!! he loved the voice recordable card, the polo shirt with his name funkaliciously painted on it...and the breakfast..
so all four of us sat down to enjoy some breakfast early in the mornin at 6 am, somethin we have NEVER done.

well yes, i love you dad. i don need the occassion of your birthday to tell you that. u are a gem of a parent and seriously, u are everythin to us.

yes.. then i had to set off for my CONFERENCE.
to represent the delegation of PAkistan for the next 3 days.

who knew who knew.....

2006-05-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

i had an awesome japanese spread with my lovely father and brother. and yes.. with the sticky rice, throat burning green wasabe, comes funny funny moments.
everytime three of us decide to hit the sushi outlets, we always end up havin a painful stomach not from the large amounts of rice, but by laughing.

today.. it was no different .
my daddy dearest who had to eat ALL the pink ginger there was, then he grabbed my watermelon and when i yelped that i had no watermelon left , (because my brother took the other one), he bit half of it and jus spit it. it was hilarious the way he did it.
then he had his infamous sneeze... which i and my brother HAD to laugh at...
and then him being his ever usual patient self , waitin for his salmon teriyaki ..and eatin up ALL the pink ginger instead.
and of course, my dad had to mock the couple beside us who only LOOKED small..but they were like eating half of what the restaurant was cookin for the nite.
damn .

point being, i love my dinner days with my family!

and yes... the WEEK. how has this week been?
fairly okay.
desperate housewives finally comin out with answers.
monday i dint go to school. i was tired. absolutely.

holiday= a day FREE FROM WORK that one may SPEND AT LEISURE .

my school jus gives a whole new meaning , a whole new definition to holiday.

i have to PAY people 32 dollars to deprive myself of a proper bed, proper bathin facilities and proper rest
i have to PAY people 32 fuckin buckaroos to scream and shout at me and make me clean the toilets and the tables.
i know i sound like a fuckin bimbo but what the hells.
i m entitled to my rest also lar Mofos!!!

i have make up classes every other day... which i guess u can term as LEISURE.
ah lord.
i so needed this break.
and it looks like i m not goin to have it the way i want.
ah christ.

and yes of course i have the LOVABLE adorable homework to do.
and no its not jus one essay , or one compre..
i have 10 issues blah blah.

to top it all, i have to study for them common tests.

this is so unbecomin of me and i shall really STOP whining.

and yes, i have a few lovely friends who jus TEMPT Me and do their business and strategy talk to persuade me to party.
damn u foxes.

GSS> i wanna go SHOPPING.
i need retail therapy.
terribly.

i need to de-stress.

rite now,all i need is sleep. which some people are BENT on deprivin me of that too..

argh the bitches i call my friends.
Cheh. yea yea i still lau u all lar.

2006-05-22T11:34:00.000+08:00

ah fatigue.
i had a blast on friday. met up with giant first...
who had a bad hair day .. and was being all experimental with my ipod.
then rushed down to town, got the bday presents and went down to Bishan.
where we surprised the girl and gosh so much screamin and cake throwing!
and mocking. people who lessen the detest for my daily school life.
then i had to cut my fun short there and rush down to ma lovely lovely sr.

Seriously.. couldnt be bothered with the other two fools and the chicks continual staring.
but thankew to rush,nazi,superman, my chinese bf, rozelles(blush blush) and vanessa who jus made me laugh, scream and laugh even more.
i miss that school one helluva alot! i seriously dono why but i so overwhemled when i jus entered the school.
even though i was there for barely 3 months, the school has touched me in so many ways.
and i am even contemplatin teachin because of that school.
haiks.
my heart will always be there.

2006-05-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

May 17 2006

You will always be remembered.
The photograph doesnt do you any justice.
You were handsome and happy.
You showed us ALL the strength , the perserverance and love.

I ask of you up there to do just one thing;protect my father.
He who was your everything.
He who visited u every single day without fail.
He who sighs and thinks about you all the time.
He who has remembered this day and will always remember it.

3 years and your absence still hurts.

2006-05-14T18:55:00.000+08:00

and yes life goes on....

anyway happy mothers' day.
every year for the past 3 years, i always had such a list to call up.. coz seriously, my friends' mothers adore me ( i would like to think so at least).
and the call pretty much sums up my gratitude for their words, their food and their care.

'A mother is GOD's love in action.'

on a more jigiddy jengo note, year 2006 is a year i have gotten to know many people which has jus further emphasized on the point that singapore IS a smalll world.
even smaller if u r cedarian.
:)
INDIAN =minute world.

wel. i prefer posting pics nowadays so here goes. the portrayal of my saturdaynite. which i hoped would be fun. it was not bad..
company was good.. others were all trash. so oh wells.
and yes... i think most of the pics look like we are wasted. but we arent...its urm, our normal face?

2006-05-12T19:13:00.000+08:00

On tuesday. i had hell.
i did the traditional diary method :writing.

i have so many things to say to so many people. but i cant.

so yeah.

until then, to let u know that i will survive.

i damn freakin random rite.
shitzus.

yes i will survive.

2006-05-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

thought i would jus say a little on the GE 2006.

first of all... i mentioned previously in a post that my fellow schoolmates purposely voted for WORKERS party and i said that their attempts at being rebels reeked.
and recently, when i enquired a few friends of their voting choice, they said the opposition. some even questioned my outpour of love for chiam [visible in my msn nick] . and so i realised that some of you have misunderstood my point.
see, i dont hate the opposition.
The opposition IS necessary. what i criticized was how my fellow schoolmates voted for the WP to REBEL against the PAP for the sake of being rebellious?
And truly, i realised that THAT IS the increasing trend and viewpoint. Vote for whatever opposition because of your loyalty to them , because you would like to give them a chance , but not because u dislike the PAP or because they are arrogant?
or because u jus want to put down the PAP?

KUDOS to hougang and potong pasir. Chiam See Tong IS da man! i have spoken to him (abit only lar) and seriously, he has this humble disposition . And 22 years in power? shows this man has created somethin in people of potong pasir who cant be swayed by mere abalone proridges and 80 million.
I am proud of every Singaporean who have voted for Chiam based on their fierce loyalty and for giving him a chance.
To be frank, I was worried of the GE because on only one thing ; the constituency of potong pasir and if Chiam would win. given the narrow range of the previous elections and my grandmother herself being shaky on her vote and tellin me that she would vote for the party which promised her lifts.. i was afraid that Chiam wouldnt make it.
I truly wasnt interested in the hoo haa over Gomez and the workers party.. And the disappearing acts of some candidates of the opposition party.

Then again , this is where my second point of ignorance comes in. Ignorance and powerlessness= invalid votes. those overseas do not bother to reinstate their voting status because of their perception that the PAP is going to win anyway.
So we have two groups of people in our generation : The ones who feel that their votes dont matter, and the other who just attempt at being anti-PAP.
i read an article ST 7 May 2006.i apologise tremendously but i cant rmb the writer's name.
The overall jist of the article which I would like to put across : How the political parties failed to make the people feel that their vote truly mattered. How the ignorance of the people is becoming an increasingly worryin trend.
Amidst all the defamation suits, blah blah blah, the parties failed to put across to people the significance of their vote.

So I have been having interesting conversations about politics with them friends. If the overall lower vote percentage for PAP shows one thing , it would be how Singapore's political landscape is changing.
And how interesting its gonna keep getting.
from havin almost 3/4 of the votes to havin only 2/3... The PAP has probably gotten their wakeup call... that they cannot appeal to the youngsters merely by havin younger, 'fresher' candidates.
they would have to do more. WAY more.

ALRITE my desperate housewives time. CIAOZ.

2006-05-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

yes yes.. i have realised the recent abundance of angsty posts. so yea.
pics to ease the tension.
i m still a happy girl. and i have my joyous celebratory moments.
compare and contrast. haha.
there are still many many girlfriends i would love to include.. coz they have jus gotten hotter...
but the photo tool is givin me a slight trouble and i hate all this techno problems.
and others ,i jus have a lack of photos. (suuuuu, snow white....)
i might continue but yea..
this for now.
:)

yes i absolutely miss this one like CRAZY! i look thru all our pics and hope u are havin a good time. my everythin khaki.

This gal can look damn hot lar. i jus dono how she does it. but she can pull of that traditional look AND the coolio mama look. and yes. haha. those times.

ahhhhhhhhh . black never loses its novelty . jus like we wont. my barbie doll.

michelle. her smilessssssss.

this one. i have no words to describe what she means to me. i have a dozen pics of her and me lookin so different. but yes, nevertheless, i LOVE this pretty face.

haha. i have worse pics of her and me. coz we urm, used to look VERY VERY terrible. but yes, as u can see, the evolution to a hot babe. her hair is gorgeous and NATURAL too.

2006-05-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

i have quite a few things i want to blog about. but a little in brief and yea.

1. about how people are shameful abt their own tradition/culture.
pretty much they think they should have been born with some other identity.
but their failure to realise that they are pretty much worthless without their sense of identity.
Shit, the ease with which they say 'Oh, i dont like to mix around with indians/malays/chinese.' when they are precisely of that particular race. and yes, forget not the fake accent some add as extra conviction of their 'other identity'. And the whole ' I dont speak tamil.' If you yourself as a indian dont do so, who will do it? ah yes, the foreigners of course. Listen to all the remixes, and the hindi girl singin at the back with the nigga dude rapping but NO, please dont listen to tamil music. coz really, the americans and the whites were the ones who came up with indian music.
Us indians, we are jus tryin to emulate them. and yes , must i add, laugh and save those indian mockery videos on your phone and tickle your toes, but really, tell the world that u hate being an indian.

2. general elections. no, not the whole hoo haa real thing.but a mock general elections held in my school.
(supposedly, they want to give us the experience of voting since it would be in another 5+++ years we would be presented with the opportunity to vote)
= how all young punks thought they were being cool and voted for WP.
yeeehaa! ur attempt to be a rebel REEKS.

3. abt my NO DATING stand that everyone seems to mock of recent.
eh. shut up lar. i have strong will. and i will manage. and i have reasons i dont have to explain to YOU.

4. abt how people come up to me and tell me that THEIR friends went to tell them/enquire if i had lesbian tendencies... and they('people')being surprised at my lack of reaction.
u think i dint anticipate all this 'innocent curiosity' when i decided to chop the mayiru off?
lols. and yes.. i will repeat once again ... i go to school for the purpose of 'receiving a holistic education, entertaining and lovin' . and i dont need kohl pencils, fancy pink clips and a girly bag to achieve all of this. :)

5. abt how my instincts have not failed me as of yet.
and i always give the person the benefit of doubt .. but honestly, end of the day, my instincts turn out to be true. and really,its not helpin u know.. abt how consistently u guys dont bother to prove me wrong.
=and yes, rmb once i told you i would choose vikram over you any time, haha. see my point.
and u said this whole shit abt likin an image.
u know what.
u were havin an image too what?
u lost your worth, kid. all i can say : look at your priorities.
my gut instincts were so right abt you. ah well. good luck .

6. if you think u are havin a very easy relationship and somethin is fishy, ask me.
of late, i have been obtaining and reflecting upon the cynical viewpoints of relationships (between boy and girl). yes i can offer you both the good and bad. but yes, if u require the latter, ask.

no offense , i still love boys .

ahh thats pretty much the issues. all those takin your mid years, study hard. u should be reading this post after your exams. U KNOW WHO U ARE!
and as for me, i miss sleeping .
alot.

and i jus viewed a few of my videos taken from secondary school. a little nostalgic.
ahhhhhh. the days i spent choreographing dance steps and teaching chinese girls how to shake their heads .. 25 chinese gals.
an amazing performance to which the audience laughed and enjoyed.
the days when we all pulled down our skirts in fear of spot checks.. the days we searched for optimal hiding places for handphones. the toilet times. the screaming and SCREAMING and SCREAMING times. shit. any more and i might jus get EMO.

Transition and Change. So necessary.

i watched Take The Lead. I like dance and i appreciate people who can dance( i have mentioned this before, i realise).
A slow movie, but catched up with an old friend.

Then i had fun with them new school mates. The wonders of a camera.
so much it can do to entertain.

ah yes, school is gettin better. so is the company.

2006-04-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

2006-04-27T14:54:00.000+08:00

Seek
solace
in
solitude.